Ok, had a sucky day. Early morning sent my phone for service again. Whitesands SE service point is closing down. I’m going to Novena there to collect my phone man. Shit. After that, took bus with her to school.
Today’s lab was confusing. The calculation part was crap. We were the slowest class. We ended very late too. It was our latest timing. 2.45 PM. Went around Tampines getting the stuff for CCN with the ladies. Tired. We managed to get almost all we needed.
Make a mess out of WL’s kitchen I guess? Actually, not really. I did most of the cleaning up. They call me “good papa”. Anyway, my goal is to be a good husband and father. How good? It’s a long story.
Quite pissed with G today. I guess my eyes were BIG when I was talking to her. Just feel like throwing everything to them and leave. However, rational enough; can’t “Yi Qi Yong Shi”. Yup, the majority is my main concern. Aim at the problem, not the person.
Chocolate dipping didn’t turn out quite well; wasn’t very presentable. The taste was alright. However, alternatives are in place. We’ve got back up plan. To me, the back up plan was tidier in that sense. Less processing work and no risk nor worries about failing the task.
Chatted with her over the phone last night. She cried after reading my previous entry. Touching? Haha. Yup, me too. Tears shed; at the moment talking about my grandma with her. I miss her badly; the urge of wanting some one back. Feel it if you’re reading right now. Just imagine yourself in any form of situation. The urge can be forgotten in the day. However, when you needed her voice, the urge comes back. It’s like smoking. The urge. URGE.
Grandma grandma where are you?
I have the answer here to why people think; to pursue enlightenment. Have you watch Dharma on channel 8? It’s repeating now at 5.30PM. I watch it previously and watch it sometimes when I’ve got nothing to do. Values and enlightenment is actually learnt. It’s life values, not religious values as in believe in blah blah. NO. It’s like a piece of advice that breaks through and widens your thinking of life.
As said, there are pros and cons to every religion. I’ll talk about others when time goes by. Good night.
Wednesday, August 03, 2005
Tuesday, August 02, 2005
Ok. So I have my archive done up. People who are interested can view my “past deception”.
Woke up early morning; feeling lethargic. Had a midnight “influenza”. Blocked nose and running nose; spoiled my sleep. However, I got quite well again in the late afternoon. Weird. That’s the reason why I skipped DB today. I have to, I’ve got a feeling I’m falling sick soon.
Ok. MEB pop quiz, I’m going to fail I guess. I crapped my way through. i’m feeling so dead towards MEB. Early morning’s PIPC too. I don’t know what I did la. Just whack. I was so relax man. I like it. However, let’s test and see what’s the outcome yea? I learned to relax. Kinda.
However, I still ate ice-cream on the way home. Haha. Hazelnut Ice-cream. Cool.
Ok, found out PS’s blog today. Didn’t know she blog. “Ren Bu Ke Mao Xiang”. Ok, interesting I would say. Yup, expected: she thinks a lot too.
Think think think. Why do people think. Thoughts. Our thoughts. Why sometimes people go to an extend of thinking more? That’s one question I’ve been asking myself. W-H-Y. Why. Someone, post your comments.
Building up on PS’s blog; every individual is a droplet of rain/water/blah. As we move along in our life, we met different people, as we move on further, we met new people. On the way, people left the world, leaving you. Can you imagine that kind of feeling?
Let’s say we’re living till 75 years old. Going by priorities; relatives. Feel alright, maybe a little sad? Grandparents, aunties and uncles… Sadder? Next, parents. How much will you be crying? I’m crying and being sad for my grandmother’s death. As you age, it maybe your siblings. OMG. Then, maybe it’s your turn? Wife? You know what I’ll chose? I’ll leave last then.
Look, in your life there’s so many heart wrenching things you’ll be going through. I guess most of us have this thought when we were young; I want to hurry grow up! However for now, I do not appreciate it at all. People who once loved you, left. You’re lack of another voice of concern. How uneasy can that be? Death is a “Jie Tuo”.
Naturally, don’t be stupid and think of committing suicide so early. Setbacks are just part and parcel of life. Enjoy what you can that is provided here. Just think; nice buffet and delicious food, beautiful scenery which have yet to see!
After school, back at home I was chatting with my mother. Halfway through, she said, “that time your grandmother thought that Diana is coming to eat you know, and she specially open the dinning table in the living room, she was anxious.” “I told her next time. But, she really doesn’t have the fate to do so.”
These 2 sentences irk me. I felt my heart being pierced. Sucks! I badly want her back. But, can I? I just hope god would just give us a warning before she left. At least, we could do all the very last things.
Moral of the story, treasure the people around you.
Many things in our life, is not as important compared to family. It should be the first. For those who are Christians, religion first. However, what’s the credibility of every single thing produced out of religion? I am neutral and not biased. I believe every religion has their truth. People just misunderstand it and carry on passing it down. Career-minded ones, how much money can you earn? Bookworms, how much books can you ever finish?
What is our aim by doing all these and neglecting our family members? It’s only once in a life time. God gives you, treasure it. Not him. He’ll be there as long as you have him in the heart. Misused and misunderstand.
Thus, I would want to say; I love my family and every single one of them. I love you too, dearest.
Woke up early morning; feeling lethargic. Had a midnight “influenza”. Blocked nose and running nose; spoiled my sleep. However, I got quite well again in the late afternoon. Weird. That’s the reason why I skipped DB today. I have to, I’ve got a feeling I’m falling sick soon.
Ok. MEB pop quiz, I’m going to fail I guess. I crapped my way through. i’m feeling so dead towards MEB. Early morning’s PIPC too. I don’t know what I did la. Just whack. I was so relax man. I like it. However, let’s test and see what’s the outcome yea? I learned to relax. Kinda.
However, I still ate ice-cream on the way home. Haha. Hazelnut Ice-cream. Cool.
Ok, found out PS’s blog today. Didn’t know she blog. “Ren Bu Ke Mao Xiang”. Ok, interesting I would say. Yup, expected: she thinks a lot too.
Think think think. Why do people think. Thoughts. Our thoughts. Why sometimes people go to an extend of thinking more? That’s one question I’ve been asking myself. W-H-Y. Why. Someone, post your comments.
Building up on PS’s blog; every individual is a droplet of rain/water/blah. As we move along in our life, we met different people, as we move on further, we met new people. On the way, people left the world, leaving you. Can you imagine that kind of feeling?
Let’s say we’re living till 75 years old. Going by priorities; relatives. Feel alright, maybe a little sad? Grandparents, aunties and uncles… Sadder? Next, parents. How much will you be crying? I’m crying and being sad for my grandmother’s death. As you age, it maybe your siblings. OMG. Then, maybe it’s your turn? Wife? You know what I’ll chose? I’ll leave last then.
Look, in your life there’s so many heart wrenching things you’ll be going through. I guess most of us have this thought when we were young; I want to hurry grow up! However for now, I do not appreciate it at all. People who once loved you, left. You’re lack of another voice of concern. How uneasy can that be? Death is a “Jie Tuo”.
Naturally, don’t be stupid and think of committing suicide so early. Setbacks are just part and parcel of life. Enjoy what you can that is provided here. Just think; nice buffet and delicious food, beautiful scenery which have yet to see!
After school, back at home I was chatting with my mother. Halfway through, she said, “that time your grandmother thought that Diana is coming to eat you know, and she specially open the dinning table in the living room, she was anxious.” “I told her next time. But, she really doesn’t have the fate to do so.”
These 2 sentences irk me. I felt my heart being pierced. Sucks! I badly want her back. But, can I? I just hope god would just give us a warning before she left. At least, we could do all the very last things.
Moral of the story, treasure the people around you.
Many things in our life, is not as important compared to family. It should be the first. For those who are Christians, religion first. However, what’s the credibility of every single thing produced out of religion? I am neutral and not biased. I believe every religion has their truth. People just misunderstand it and carry on passing it down. Career-minded ones, how much money can you earn? Bookworms, how much books can you ever finish?
What is our aim by doing all these and neglecting our family members? It’s only once in a life time. God gives you, treasure it. Not him. He’ll be there as long as you have him in the heart. Misused and misunderstand.
Thus, I would want to say; I love my family and every single one of them. I love you too, dearest.
Sunday, July 31, 2005
Been busy with work, school and CCA. Therefore, didn’t had time to blog.
Today I had my dragon boat training at Kallang. Shagged. Immediately after reaching home, I grabbed my protein shake. Nice. It cost me $72 man (after discount). Usual price is $110. For those who maybe interested, it’s Whey Protein. I can actually feel the effect after taking it yesterday night. My muscle ache almost recovered fully.
It was a non-stop 2 hours sitting inside the dragon boat. My butt hurts a lot. If you’re interested, you can try next time. I also had my first running session during NOON time. Mind you, it’s 12PM hot sun. Anyway, many ran on the road half naked. I feel as if I was in army. Phew.
Luckily with people like R and B, if not I guess I would have quit long ago. Sometimes, it’s just difficult to have friends no matter how much you tried. You just won’t feel close to certain people. That’s what I call fate. Fate brings people around you closer.
Yesterday went out with her and her family. Yup, I enjoyed myself. First, you don’t have to worry about transport. You don’t have to walk much either. Boo was sick. I guess the people around him pass him the virus; poor little thing. I guess my dearest was sick due to him. KILL HIM. Haha. It was meant to be a joke.
I love animals too. However, I try to keep a distance. We’re animals but of different species. Who knows one day you may created a virus out of you and him? You never know nowadays man. You don’t harm him nor does it harm you. Love him, find him a partner to be close to him.
Anyway, I was quite irritated with G today. SMS keep coming in with questions. I checked with PS and she didn’t actually contact her. She always wants her way anyway - that was an excuse, so as it can be on Monday.
Anyway, I’m starting to find myself entertaining different groups of people weekly. Excluding my dearest of course! Last week was the lecturers but I enjoyed the trip. This week was DB, I didn’t quit enjoy myself actually. Wasn’t that FUN I would say.
Stress comes again after entertainment. Got to rush my tutorials, study lecture quiz coming up this Tuesday. Burnt week! And so is my body now. I guess it’ll be peeling soon.
Oh, you know who I saw at Pulau Ubin that time? Sebastian from Project Superstar. Wanted to “suan” by singing his last song. That was his worse performance man. Anyway saw Kelly Poon at President Star Charity just now. She’s beautiful! Sweet with elegance. Opps! She’s going to KILL ME I guess. Keke.
So now, it’s my Term Test and Dragon Boat’s Physical Test results:
Term Test:
OC - 35.5/50
PIPC - 34.5/50
MEB - 23.5/50
EM - 40.0/50
CSAS - 20.0/50 [Maybe Adding 1 More Mark]
Average GPA would be a B for the term test. However, including lecture quiz, lab work and tutorial quiz would be a B+ I guess. For the rest of my class, most got straight As.
DB’s IPPT:
Pull Up - 6.0
Sit Up - 57
Push Up:
Set 1 - 68
Set 2 - 79
2.4KM - 11 minutes 07 seconds
All the above are per minute basis except for 2.4KM. I do not think it was very fair. For those who turned for Tuesday training still suffered from muscle aches. For Pull Up, I usually do a 8 or 9 without aches. So I do not think I had improve. I still do not know how to use back muscles for Pull Up. 2.4KM was slow compared to my fastest timing at 10:11.
I hope I can get back the stamina. Another test will be up 1 month later! Ok, that’s all for today. Byez.
Today I had my dragon boat training at Kallang. Shagged. Immediately after reaching home, I grabbed my protein shake. Nice. It cost me $72 man (after discount). Usual price is $110. For those who maybe interested, it’s Whey Protein. I can actually feel the effect after taking it yesterday night. My muscle ache almost recovered fully.
It was a non-stop 2 hours sitting inside the dragon boat. My butt hurts a lot. If you’re interested, you can try next time. I also had my first running session during NOON time. Mind you, it’s 12PM hot sun. Anyway, many ran on the road half naked. I feel as if I was in army. Phew.
Luckily with people like R and B, if not I guess I would have quit long ago. Sometimes, it’s just difficult to have friends no matter how much you tried. You just won’t feel close to certain people. That’s what I call fate. Fate brings people around you closer.
Yesterday went out with her and her family. Yup, I enjoyed myself. First, you don’t have to worry about transport. You don’t have to walk much either. Boo was sick. I guess the people around him pass him the virus; poor little thing. I guess my dearest was sick due to him. KILL HIM. Haha. It was meant to be a joke.
I love animals too. However, I try to keep a distance. We’re animals but of different species. Who knows one day you may created a virus out of you and him? You never know nowadays man. You don’t harm him nor does it harm you. Love him, find him a partner to be close to him.
Anyway, I was quite irritated with G today. SMS keep coming in with questions. I checked with PS and she didn’t actually contact her. She always wants her way anyway - that was an excuse, so as it can be on Monday.
Anyway, I’m starting to find myself entertaining different groups of people weekly. Excluding my dearest of course! Last week was the lecturers but I enjoyed the trip. This week was DB, I didn’t quit enjoy myself actually. Wasn’t that FUN I would say.
Stress comes again after entertainment. Got to rush my tutorials, study lecture quiz coming up this Tuesday. Burnt week! And so is my body now. I guess it’ll be peeling soon.
Oh, you know who I saw at Pulau Ubin that time? Sebastian from Project Superstar. Wanted to “suan” by singing his last song. That was his worse performance man. Anyway saw Kelly Poon at President Star Charity just now. She’s beautiful! Sweet with elegance. Opps! She’s going to KILL ME I guess. Keke.
So now, it’s my Term Test and Dragon Boat’s Physical Test results:
Term Test:
OC - 35.5/50
PIPC - 34.5/50
MEB - 23.5/50
EM - 40.0/50
CSAS - 20.0/50 [Maybe Adding 1 More Mark]
Average GPA would be a B for the term test. However, including lecture quiz, lab work and tutorial quiz would be a B+ I guess. For the rest of my class, most got straight As.
DB’s IPPT:
Pull Up - 6.0
Sit Up - 57
Push Up:
Set 1 - 68
Set 2 - 79
2.4KM - 11 minutes 07 seconds
All the above are per minute basis except for 2.4KM. I do not think it was very fair. For those who turned for Tuesday training still suffered from muscle aches. For Pull Up, I usually do a 8 or 9 without aches. So I do not think I had improve. I still do not know how to use back muscles for Pull Up. 2.4KM was slow compared to my fastest timing at 10:11.
I hope I can get back the stamina. Another test will be up 1 month later! Ok, that’s all for today. Byez.
Wednesday, July 27, 2005
Today’s lab was boring. Structures of molecules were involved. Plug, unplug and show.
Today’s class discussion was conducted with great effort I guess. I’m gald that many of them participated. Some kept quiet. However, they were observers to me. One of them was WL. Got some feedback from her which I don’t think should be mention AC was usually quiet. I wonder what’s in his mind. KJ and SHA got G prompted a few times. They were of my concerns too. I’m glad that I didn’t need to raise them up and try to talk sense into her.
She was persistent but didn’t give others assurances. “I did before le”. It doesn’t show how experience you are, how successful it’ll be. To earn trust, some things has to be done and proven to be true. Have experiment it, get more witnesses about the successful rate. Do not give yourself a chance to be a clown in the whole event and things wasted. Successful rate, taste, packaging, processing are all linked up. 1 fail, the whole idea is destroyed. Why so harsh? Irrational.
Skip lecture. Welfare of the class isn’t her concern. Who’s so stupid to lose out? Some can afford to, some can’t. Be considerate. We’ve to minimize any form of risk. We shouldn’t allow it to affect our lessons unless it is really necessary.
Things do not go your way every time especially you are leading a group of people. You’ve to stand in their perception; “I CAN one”, “I’ll TAKE it”. Are you leading or are you doing it yourself? Where’s deployment? Where’s your team’s welfare concern? That’s leadership. Be cool, work smart, be fun, deploy work, be adventurous, be considerate.
L - Lead
E – Esprit de corps/ Endure
A - Adventurous
D – Discipline
E - Empathize
R - Rational
S - Smart
H - Honest
I - Integrity
P – Patience
BREAK!
Quarrels again and again. DAMN. Irks! I’m going MAD, CRAZY, LAZY & WHATEVER!
FINAL!
Don't PISS ME!
Today’s class discussion was conducted with great effort I guess. I’m gald that many of them participated. Some kept quiet. However, they were observers to me. One of them was WL. Got some feedback from her which I don’t think should be mention AC was usually quiet. I wonder what’s in his mind. KJ and SHA got G prompted a few times. They were of my concerns too. I’m glad that I didn’t need to raise them up and try to talk sense into her.
She was persistent but didn’t give others assurances. “I did before le”. It doesn’t show how experience you are, how successful it’ll be. To earn trust, some things has to be done and proven to be true. Have experiment it, get more witnesses about the successful rate. Do not give yourself a chance to be a clown in the whole event and things wasted. Successful rate, taste, packaging, processing are all linked up. 1 fail, the whole idea is destroyed. Why so harsh? Irrational.
Skip lecture. Welfare of the class isn’t her concern. Who’s so stupid to lose out? Some can afford to, some can’t. Be considerate. We’ve to minimize any form of risk. We shouldn’t allow it to affect our lessons unless it is really necessary.
Things do not go your way every time especially you are leading a group of people. You’ve to stand in their perception; “I CAN one”, “I’ll TAKE it”. Are you leading or are you doing it yourself? Where’s deployment? Where’s your team’s welfare concern? That’s leadership. Be cool, work smart, be fun, deploy work, be adventurous, be considerate.
L - Lead
E – Esprit de corps/ Endure
A - Adventurous
D – Discipline
E - Empathize
R - Rational
S - Smart
H - Honest
I - Integrity
P – Patience
BREAK!
Quarrels again and again. DAMN. Irks! I’m going MAD, CRAZY, LAZY & WHATEVER!
FINAL!
Don't PISS ME!
Tuesday, July 26, 2005
I don't know why. There was once when someone told me she'll cherish me. I felt so ignored by the treatment and attitude. I hate it. I hate the insecurities. Why must things be told then it'll be done? I suppose many things come by so naturally? Comparing to the past it's so different! Let's see what happens when I am not going to do anything about it anymore! Go, stray! Damn! No liars this time.
Having sleepy eyes, yet waiting for her SMS. Today’s DB training somehow seems shag. However it’s not surprising. I skipped last week’s run. 2 weeks never run, 1.6 KM can’t even speed up. Timing was 8 minutes plus. Luckily, it’s not 4 KM. It is sure to kill me. Don’t know why but I lost the kick of running. Didn’t like running that much now. I guess there’s obstruction, that I am worried about; my appendicitis. I’m so afraid to be hospitalized again. I should have it cut the other time.
Today, presented the ladies idea for CCN during APEL. Hope that Mr Teong didn’t get very mad. None of them came up with any reports. While presenting and writing, I felt as if I was back in NCC. Satisfied.
Still wondering, how will my OC result be? Quite worried about it.
Ok. So I promised to mention her name. Who’s the HER I’ve been talking about? Diana Chew WJ. Think she’ll have her butts in her air after reading this entry. Yup, she’s my love. That’s all. Nothing to hide.
I really do hope to be treasured and appreciated. By having said that, sometimes a simple SMS in between your lessons will make the day. Sometimes for a reason, I wonder why.
I miss the past. The days we spent. Maybe people grow up, relationship changes over time. Maybe knowing each other later may do you good in certain aspects. Perfect. I enjoy listening to Simple Plan. I could get the lyrics very clearly. Meaningful.
Lately, I haven't been enjoying my sleep at night. It's so difficult to get to sleep. I hope I can make it tonight. Insomnia. Aiks.
Today, presented the ladies idea for CCN during APEL. Hope that Mr Teong didn’t get very mad. None of them came up with any reports. While presenting and writing, I felt as if I was back in NCC. Satisfied.
Still wondering, how will my OC result be? Quite worried about it.
Ok. So I promised to mention her name. Who’s the HER I’ve been talking about? Diana Chew WJ. Think she’ll have her butts in her air after reading this entry. Yup, she’s my love. That’s all. Nothing to hide.
I really do hope to be treasured and appreciated. By having said that, sometimes a simple SMS in between your lessons will make the day. Sometimes for a reason, I wonder why.
I miss the past. The days we spent. Maybe people grow up, relationship changes over time. Maybe knowing each other later may do you good in certain aspects. Perfect. I enjoy listening to Simple Plan. I could get the lyrics very clearly. Meaningful.
Lately, I haven't been enjoying my sleep at night. It's so difficult to get to sleep. I hope I can make it tonight. Insomnia. Aiks.
Monday, July 25, 2005
Have been quite lazy to blog for the past few days. Saturday was the Pulau Ubin Trip with the lecturers. It was fun. Heard many stories from Dr Ong. He had many opinions of different students on our class. I wonder what it is his opinion about me. He gave so many names to the group of guys too. Haha.
During the whole process of the trip, he “suaned” Lecturer Lim AL. I think he got quite mad. Just wonder how does it feel to you if you’re a lecturer and “suaned” by the other in front of the teens? I wonder if his face is always expressionless because, throughout the trip, his face showed nothing. LOL. As Dr Ong said, he always do that to him. I guess he is immunized to it.
We paid nothing for the trip. Let’s calculate bumboat $4 back and fore. $8 for bike rental from 8 – 6 PM. Coconut drink, $2. Soft drinks, $1. Lunch subsidized $2.50 by Dr Ong. $17.50! Moreover, there are 4 of us plus 1 more year 3 student. That’s 5. $87.50. Isn’t it nice?
At some areas of the trip, I smelled the mosquito repellent which is often use in OBS. The smell brought me back to about 2 years ago when I had my OBS mobile. Somehow while I am blogging right now, I remember the days where I had my feelings for her. Wooing her and waiting for her reply. I remember I missed her so badly during the 5 days! She was lovely too. She took down every lesson’s happenings on foolscap. So “xi xin”! Touch.
Today got no dragon boat training! Trainings have been changed to Tuesday and Thursday for this week. And on Thursday, it’s physical test. Hopefully my muscles recover on time after Tuesday training.
Today is a great day to be. No DB and got sufficient rest/sleep finally. However, got a few thing to be done; proposal for CCN day, MEB and EM tutorials. I guess no one did the proposal and tomorrow got APEL.
Feeling so great today! Sweet and lovely. It seems like I’m sounding girlish. Aiks.
During the whole process of the trip, he “suaned” Lecturer Lim AL. I think he got quite mad. Just wonder how does it feel to you if you’re a lecturer and “suaned” by the other in front of the teens? I wonder if his face is always expressionless because, throughout the trip, his face showed nothing. LOL. As Dr Ong said, he always do that to him. I guess he is immunized to it.
We paid nothing for the trip. Let’s calculate bumboat $4 back and fore. $8 for bike rental from 8 – 6 PM. Coconut drink, $2. Soft drinks, $1. Lunch subsidized $2.50 by Dr Ong. $17.50! Moreover, there are 4 of us plus 1 more year 3 student. That’s 5. $87.50. Isn’t it nice?
At some areas of the trip, I smelled the mosquito repellent which is often use in OBS. The smell brought me back to about 2 years ago when I had my OBS mobile. Somehow while I am blogging right now, I remember the days where I had my feelings for her. Wooing her and waiting for her reply. I remember I missed her so badly during the 5 days! She was lovely too. She took down every lesson’s happenings on foolscap. So “xi xin”! Touch.
Today got no dragon boat training! Trainings have been changed to Tuesday and Thursday for this week. And on Thursday, it’s physical test. Hopefully my muscles recover on time after Tuesday training.
Today is a great day to be. No DB and got sufficient rest/sleep finally. However, got a few thing to be done; proposal for CCN day, MEB and EM tutorials. I guess no one did the proposal and tomorrow got APEL.
Feeling so great today! Sweet and lovely. It seems like I’m sounding girlish. Aiks.
Friday, July 22, 2005
Quite anxious about CSAS results today. Got 18.5/20 but added 1.5 marks after my explanations. So, 20/25. However, may be adding 1 more mark. Ms S has to check with her colleague. PS got the top for CSAS. Congrats. Luckily, it’s not some others again. Top for the cohort is 23/25 from BMS. It was close.
Some news, do not know if it’s true. Average mean for the 25 classes, AD11 got top followed by AD14. ChemEng has won the race?
Chatted with PS a few minutes ago over the MSN. Enlightened. Manage to figure out something which I had miss out. Thanks. I felt better.
Tried talking to her; however I didn’t get much feedback. Maybe she doesn’t understand. Or maybe she does. She knows me the best I guess. The reason behind would be because we were on rocks and that’s why. I miss her hug.
Tomorrow will be the Pulau Ubin trip. Hopefully by traveling overseas, I’ll have a better semester. Haha. I do hope I’ll gain some useful vales & blah from the lecturers. I hope.
OC got 4As in our class. Hope I can be one of them? Fat hope?
Hopes, that’s so much of our lives when things are done. We can only try to strive before anything happens.
Some news, do not know if it’s true. Average mean for the 25 classes, AD11 got top followed by AD14. ChemEng has won the race?
Chatted with PS a few minutes ago over the MSN. Enlightened. Manage to figure out something which I had miss out. Thanks. I felt better.
Tried talking to her; however I didn’t get much feedback. Maybe she doesn’t understand. Or maybe she does. She knows me the best I guess. The reason behind would be because we were on rocks and that’s why. I miss her hug.
Tomorrow will be the Pulau Ubin trip. Hopefully by traveling overseas, I’ll have a better semester. Haha. I do hope I’ll gain some useful vales & blah from the lecturers. I hope.
OC got 4As in our class. Hope I can be one of them? Fat hope?
Hopes, that’s so much of our lives when things are done. We can only try to strive before anything happens.
Thursday, July 21, 2005
Today was a long day. 6 hours of non-stop hits (lectures). Haiz. Tired. Sick. Sick of many things that’s around me. Irritated.
I had a sleepless night yesterday. We quarreled before sleep. Cool. Anyway, guess she had a good sleep. She didn’t bother. I don’t know why. Sometimes people can just don’t bother and do what they like. However, when it comes to me, I’ll make sure other’s heart is very best assured. Assurances always give people a sense of comfort and security. I dislike people to worry. Thus, often I would be an obedient boy.
Got back PIPC test result. For a moment, it was lower than expected. I flipped through the pages, 6 marks of careless mistakes. 3 marks for identifying the ions. I did not identify. But rather, I answered the next sentence of the question: “Indicate the charge clearly whenever possible.” I showed all the charge for all the ions. But I didn’t identify them. I wondered what had happen to my eyes at that moment! It was a heart stabbing mistake.
Next, 1 of the MCQ, convert 8709L/min to gallon/hr. converted to gallons but not to per hr. Fuck!
Do not wish to mention the rest. Careless careless careless.
I remember I when I had AM tuition last year, I asked him this question. How to avoid careless mistake? He said, care less. When you care less, you won’t be careless. It’s when you cared too much, it becomes careless. There’s some truth in it though. You still check and care, but don’t be so fussy about gritty gritty things.
I’m still trying to change and to improve my exams habits. It’s very difficult. It’s always my cause of downfall. 平时想的东西太多了, 到了紧要关头时, 就把测验搞砸.
Pissed. Very pissed off by someone. I do not know why. I hate the attitude, the treatment. I feel more like a guardian than a care-giver.
I thought that the bus ride would be a nice talk over. However, I turned out to be a companion once more. I should be a bus driver.
The wait for bus 17 was longer than usual. The ride too. It’s so different when you’re alone and with someone. After I board the bus, I rest my on the cushion. Terribly tired. Some how, I smsed and said what I wanted to say. Anger turned into disappointment and hurt. Lost. Without knowing, tears rolled down. I needed a shoulder, better; a hug.
I broke down. No one to share the pain I feel. Studies stress, peer pressure (cause many are getting good marks in my class), pressure from relationship. I miss my grandma somehow. I wondered if she’s in somewhere more peaceful than I am.
I miss her badly. I had hardly talked to her ever since I started my secondary school life. Regrets. The last time we spent time together was she dyed my hair for me. My dearest grandma, I miss you.
I had a sleepless night yesterday. We quarreled before sleep. Cool. Anyway, guess she had a good sleep. She didn’t bother. I don’t know why. Sometimes people can just don’t bother and do what they like. However, when it comes to me, I’ll make sure other’s heart is very best assured. Assurances always give people a sense of comfort and security. I dislike people to worry. Thus, often I would be an obedient boy.
Got back PIPC test result. For a moment, it was lower than expected. I flipped through the pages, 6 marks of careless mistakes. 3 marks for identifying the ions. I did not identify. But rather, I answered the next sentence of the question: “Indicate the charge clearly whenever possible.” I showed all the charge for all the ions. But I didn’t identify them. I wondered what had happen to my eyes at that moment! It was a heart stabbing mistake.
Next, 1 of the MCQ, convert 8709L/min to gallon/hr. converted to gallons but not to per hr. Fuck!
Do not wish to mention the rest. Careless careless careless.
I remember I when I had AM tuition last year, I asked him this question. How to avoid careless mistake? He said, care less. When you care less, you won’t be careless. It’s when you cared too much, it becomes careless. There’s some truth in it though. You still check and care, but don’t be so fussy about gritty gritty things.
I’m still trying to change and to improve my exams habits. It’s very difficult. It’s always my cause of downfall. 平时想的东西太多了, 到了紧要关头时, 就把测验搞砸.
Pissed. Very pissed off by someone. I do not know why. I hate the attitude, the treatment. I feel more like a guardian than a care-giver.
I thought that the bus ride would be a nice talk over. However, I turned out to be a companion once more. I should be a bus driver.
The wait for bus 17 was longer than usual. The ride too. It’s so different when you’re alone and with someone. After I board the bus, I rest my on the cushion. Terribly tired. Some how, I smsed and said what I wanted to say. Anger turned into disappointment and hurt. Lost. Without knowing, tears rolled down. I needed a shoulder, better; a hug.
I broke down. No one to share the pain I feel. Studies stress, peer pressure (cause many are getting good marks in my class), pressure from relationship. I miss my grandma somehow. I wondered if she’s in somewhere more peaceful than I am.
I miss her badly. I had hardly talked to her ever since I started my secondary school life. Regrets. The last time we spent time together was she dyed my hair for me. My dearest grandma, I miss you.
Wednesday, July 20, 2005
Had quite a relax Wednesday today. Usually around this time, I’m mentally knock out. Won’t even be blogging right now. Anyway, I would like to add on to yesterday’s entry. It may sound offensive to those who are in my class. Innocent ones also got it. However, conscience should be clear if you are not one of them.
Today’s lab session ended very early. The class finished lab at around 1355 hrs. However, we were only allowed to leave at 1415 hrs. Our time was burnt listening to “stories”. I had received some feedback on Pulau Ubin trip which will be this Saturday. SH & PS are not working. I guess some sacrificing was done. I appreciated their effort. But for those who gave unacceptable reasons. No comments.
I rushed back home for late lunch and tidy up some ends in my work. Had an hour nap, and back to school again for dragon boat training. I came late and missed running 2.4 KM. Phew. Great. Today’s training for me was 40 Pull-ups and Gym training. It was more of muscles endurance than usual mental endurance. I like it. At least it will be easy for me on Thursday which is usually a long day of lectures. Everything ended early than usual. I guess captain was shag and that’s why.
Anyway, there are some things which I would like to say. Can PEOPLE stop asking others “I shuai not”? Or whatever it is regarding looks. It’s so thick skin. If he is going to ask me one day, I would say: “Yes, you’re shuai (Bad Luck in Chinese) but not shuai (Handsome in Chinese)”. 2 different yin. Come on, did any one watch Project Superstar? Xu Huan Liang, one of the judges said (translated in English): “The reputation of cute or handsome is not given by one self nor by asking others. It’s given by others to you, without them being asked by you”.
Oh my god, get a life man.
All right, if you’re one who does that, it’s still ok in a way; it can be a joke. However, when it becomes too often, it’s thick skin. Advice to one, get a girlfriend or do it on her. But please, don’t do it so often either. You’ll scare her off. Anyway, super vain-spot. I wonder how you’ll survive during army.
God bless you.
Today’s lab session ended very early. The class finished lab at around 1355 hrs. However, we were only allowed to leave at 1415 hrs. Our time was burnt listening to “stories”. I had received some feedback on Pulau Ubin trip which will be this Saturday. SH & PS are not working. I guess some sacrificing was done. I appreciated their effort. But for those who gave unacceptable reasons. No comments.
I rushed back home for late lunch and tidy up some ends in my work. Had an hour nap, and back to school again for dragon boat training. I came late and missed running 2.4 KM. Phew. Great. Today’s training for me was 40 Pull-ups and Gym training. It was more of muscles endurance than usual mental endurance. I like it. At least it will be easy for me on Thursday which is usually a long day of lectures. Everything ended early than usual. I guess captain was shag and that’s why.
Anyway, there are some things which I would like to say. Can PEOPLE stop asking others “I shuai not”? Or whatever it is regarding looks. It’s so thick skin. If he is going to ask me one day, I would say: “Yes, you’re shuai (Bad Luck in Chinese) but not shuai (Handsome in Chinese)”. 2 different yin. Come on, did any one watch Project Superstar? Xu Huan Liang, one of the judges said (translated in English): “The reputation of cute or handsome is not given by one self nor by asking others. It’s given by others to you, without them being asked by you”.
Oh my god, get a life man.
All right, if you’re one who does that, it’s still ok in a way; it can be a joke. However, when it becomes too often, it’s thick skin. Advice to one, get a girlfriend or do it on her. But please, don’t do it so often either. You’ll scare her off. Anyway, super vain-spot. I wonder how you’ll survive during army.
God bless you.
Tuesday, July 19, 2005
It has been long ever since I started blogging. And surprisingly, you can see my last entry was last year. Time flies. I’ll not talk about what has happen over the few months. LOR SO le. Anyway, feeling quite sucky today. MEB, 23.5/50. Scored highest among the failures? Cool?
Lecturer: er.. Where is JY?
ME: Here.
Lecturer: This is your quiz paper.
(YES! A liao! 16/20! I'm draw with PS.)
Lecturer: But er.. what happen to your term test huh..
(Shit, failed. Deep down my heart, OMG!)
Lecturer: Maybe you blank or something during the exams huh.. You may want to share with me after lessons..
(Silence in ME)
Lecturer: I can see you're trying hard and you're a good student..
(Of course la)
Class: Eh..
For a moment my heart sank. However I expected it. While doing the test, I didn't know what I was really doing. Miss hands are moving, Mr Brain is not. Demoralising. I kept very quiet for lunch. My friends are like, "OK not? You're not yourself le and blah blah". Of course I'm not OK and I'm not myself! By asking, it just makes the person feel worse. He needs to be alone and sort out his thoughts. Many took up psychology as their CDS. Yet, they never tried to learn before taking up.
On the surface, by asking is showing concern. However, many do not understand one thing. How do you feel if you're in that person's shoes and you're prompt? Anyway, thanks. No offence. I understand it's always meant to be a consoling session right after something bad happen.
EM got 40/50. In fact it was 39.5. Find and begged for 0.5 marks. Kiasu right? It can't be help. TD04 is too competitive.
On the surface, we're united, we share, we coach each other. Call for study group? "Don't want la.. Ma Fan la.. I think many want to study ourselves.. blah blah.." We're top or whatever so what? Hello, there're the helpless people in your class! One of them haven't been getting good results. Anyone notice it? (Not ME) NO.
What are all these for? A play from Monday to Friday for the lecturers? To praise TD04 is a good class?
Seriously, this class is not working at all! Who's there to bond the class? It'll be tiring if no one participates! Definitely NO FUN and don't say MA FAN.
Pissed by the class meeting.
Selfish, Hypocritical, Arrogant, Self-centred, Lazy, No Enthusiasm.
Psychology? Put others before yourself. If not you'll never know and understand the real reason behind. Feel it.
We're not moving. We'll split. I guess no one cares. Nobody listens.
Lecturer: er.. Where is JY?
ME: Here.
Lecturer: This is your quiz paper.
(YES! A liao! 16/20! I'm draw with PS.)
Lecturer: But er.. what happen to your term test huh..
(Shit, failed. Deep down my heart, OMG!)
Lecturer: Maybe you blank or something during the exams huh.. You may want to share with me after lessons..
(Silence in ME)
Lecturer: I can see you're trying hard and you're a good student..
(Of course la)
Class: Eh..
For a moment my heart sank. However I expected it. While doing the test, I didn't know what I was really doing. Miss hands are moving, Mr Brain is not. Demoralising. I kept very quiet for lunch. My friends are like, "OK not? You're not yourself le and blah blah". Of course I'm not OK and I'm not myself! By asking, it just makes the person feel worse. He needs to be alone and sort out his thoughts. Many took up psychology as their CDS. Yet, they never tried to learn before taking up.
On the surface, by asking is showing concern. However, many do not understand one thing. How do you feel if you're in that person's shoes and you're prompt? Anyway, thanks. No offence. I understand it's always meant to be a consoling session right after something bad happen.
EM got 40/50. In fact it was 39.5. Find and begged for 0.5 marks. Kiasu right? It can't be help. TD04 is too competitive.
On the surface, we're united, we share, we coach each other. Call for study group? "Don't want la.. Ma Fan la.. I think many want to study ourselves.. blah blah.." We're top or whatever so what? Hello, there're the helpless people in your class! One of them haven't been getting good results. Anyone notice it? (Not ME) NO.
What are all these for? A play from Monday to Friday for the lecturers? To praise TD04 is a good class?
Seriously, this class is not working at all! Who's there to bond the class? It'll be tiring if no one participates! Definitely NO FUN and don't say MA FAN.
Pissed by the class meeting.
Selfish, Hypocritical, Arrogant, Self-centred, Lazy, No Enthusiasm.
Psychology? Put others before yourself. If not you'll never know and understand the real reason behind. Feel it.
We're not moving. We'll split. I guess no one cares. Nobody listens.
Sunday, October 31, 2004
歌手：梁静茹
词曲;作词：阿管
作曲：林毅心
编曲：Mool/Yugi
彷彿上一分钟 你还陪在我左右
还以为我们会开花结果
我还记得玫瑰色天空
却模糊了我们的脸孔
哼过的歌到底是什么内容
彷彿已经自由 下一刻我变成风
吹过你的领空 差点失控
回忆在夜里闹得很凶
我想我可以明白你所有的痛
想让你知道我懂 却担心言不由衷
我们都接受 一定是彼此不够成熟
在爱情里分不了轻重 诚实得过了头
不能退后也无法向前走
爱是一个自私的念头 把寂寞消除的理由
剩下的那些感动 能记得多久
彷彿已经自由 下一刻我变成风
吹过你的领空 差点失控
回忆在夜里闹得很凶
我想我可以明白你所有的痛
想让你知道我懂 却担心言不由衷
我们都接受 一定是彼此不够成熟
在爱情里分不了轻重 诚实得过了头
不能退后也无法向前走
爱是一个自私的念头 把寂寞消除的理由
剩下的那些感动 能记得多久
我们都接受 一定是彼此不够成熟
在爱情里分不了轻重 诚实得过了头
不能退后也无法向前走
爱是一个自私的念头 把寂寞消除的理由
剩下的那些感动 能记得多久
词曲;作词：阿管
作曲：林毅心
编曲：Mool/Yugi
彷彿上一分钟 你还陪在我左右
还以为我们会开花结果
我还记得玫瑰色天空
却模糊了我们的脸孔
哼过的歌到底是什么内容
彷彿已经自由 下一刻我变成风
吹过你的领空 差点失控
回忆在夜里闹得很凶
我想我可以明白你所有的痛
想让你知道我懂 却担心言不由衷
我们都接受 一定是彼此不够成熟
在爱情里分不了轻重 诚实得过了头
不能退后也无法向前走
爱是一个自私的念头 把寂寞消除的理由
剩下的那些感动 能记得多久
彷彿已经自由 下一刻我变成风
吹过你的领空 差点失控
回忆在夜里闹得很凶
我想我可以明白你所有的痛
想让你知道我懂 却担心言不由衷
我们都接受 一定是彼此不够成熟
在爱情里分不了轻重 诚实得过了头
不能退后也无法向前走
爱是一个自私的念头 把寂寞消除的理由
剩下的那些感动 能记得多久
我们都接受 一定是彼此不够成熟
在爱情里分不了轻重 诚实得过了头
不能退后也无法向前走
爱是一个自私的念头 把寂寞消除的理由
剩下的那些感动 能记得多久
Friday, October 01, 2004
Sunday, September 12, 2004
Wednesday, September 01, 2004
Sunday, August 22, 2004
What a week? Miss Chan SS has been absent for 3 days. Physics maybe soon CMI but no matter what I’ll still got to try to understand. The last few topics are quite difficult to understand.
The week has been busy and filled with tones of work, stress. O’s are coming and many of us do not seem to have the drive to fly. I guess the studying hours have really tired everyone out. The lack of sleep usually results in the lack of drive to move on.
Sadly, the Principle and Teachers do not understand. They just pressured the students all the way. There is a need to sleep! Otherwise how do we concentrate? Lessons this week has been OK. One of the days was in Science Lab. A good environment to have I should say. But the “ma fan” thing is our books that were kept in school.
Lessons were alright, except for AE Maths. E.T is moving very fast sometimes. Many students in the class couldn’t catch it suppose. Ricky is one of those that have been struggling as he just told me recently.
Trigo and Log differentiation and integration can be quite a killing topic. I haven’t start memorizing them even. I did memorize them before but soon I’ve forgotten them when I didn’t use it. It can be demoralizing but I guess it’s time to have some catching up with trigo and log friends. I’m going to make sure they’re my best of friends and I’ll be able to use them to my advantage in the Prelims and O’s.
There’re very little time left and I’m starting to worry. The nightmares are here and I’m hoping that it’ll be over soon. 3 bloody more months to over O’s. I guess we should have a countdown for that in class as well. I can’t wait for that kind of life Stress Free life to come. I’m looking forward for that as well. Hopefully everything will be over with beautiful dreams that come true later on.
The week has been busy and filled with tones of work, stress. O’s are coming and many of us do not seem to have the drive to fly. I guess the studying hours have really tired everyone out. The lack of sleep usually results in the lack of drive to move on.
Sadly, the Principle and Teachers do not understand. They just pressured the students all the way. There is a need to sleep! Otherwise how do we concentrate? Lessons this week has been OK. One of the days was in Science Lab. A good environment to have I should say. But the “ma fan” thing is our books that were kept in school.
Lessons were alright, except for AE Maths. E.T is moving very fast sometimes. Many students in the class couldn’t catch it suppose. Ricky is one of those that have been struggling as he just told me recently.
Trigo and Log differentiation and integration can be quite a killing topic. I haven’t start memorizing them even. I did memorize them before but soon I’ve forgotten them when I didn’t use it. It can be demoralizing but I guess it’s time to have some catching up with trigo and log friends. I’m going to make sure they’re my best of friends and I’ll be able to use them to my advantage in the Prelims and O’s.
There’re very little time left and I’m starting to worry. The nightmares are here and I’m hoping that it’ll be over soon. 3 bloody more months to over O’s. I guess we should have a countdown for that in class as well. I can’t wait for that kind of life Stress Free life to come. I’m looking forward for that as well. Hopefully everything will be over with beautiful dreams that come true later on.
Monday, August 09, 2004
I’ve been very lazy to blog recently. Partly is because of school work and the tiring days that gone by. Anyway, the school’s parade is quite well done by the students. There were a few mistakes here n there which was minor, if people do not know. Anyway, SM has done a good job.
The award ceremony was a very long one. I find it a waste of time. There’s something which I want to say, the school is very cheapskate. There prize wasn’t that well made. The quality is average. From far it looks nice. A close look will be like a shit.
I wonder why the hell the school has to present award for the seniors. Anyway, the award isn’t useful for them after the secondary school life. Not many people of their batch have come to share their joy and glory. So, what is it for? I wonder if all these were for show.
At the reception, the food wasn’t enough. Many KIASU people took a lot. I miss the cream puff. It was finished in just a short time. I guess teacher who have came down late didn’t catch it at all.
Anyway, Jay’s album is out and it’s indeed nice. I’ve also been busy listening to them. LOLX. Anyway, this album’s music is compose by Jay himself and 2 of the songs he composed the lyrics. Anyway, his album has hit 1.08 million in the recent Straits Times for only the past 5 day. I guess the number will keep rising.
Recently got a nice chat with E.T over the net and a little demoralizing I guess. But overall I did learn some things and know how to go about moving on.
Anyway, today is National Day. I would like to say Happy Birthday Singapore. Yesterday heard PM Goh saying his last words. Quite touching I guess and also I would like to say that he has lead Singapore well for the past 14 years. We could see his contributions together with his subordinates. Anyway, Singapore has been prospering only till recent years due to the crisis.
I guess these few days have been great staying at home. I’ve been getting so lazy to get out of the house. I’ve got a new hair cut recently and I seriously like it. Wahaha.
Ok, so here’s some Jay Chou’s Lyrics that I would like to share:
借口
词曲:周杰伦
翻着我们的照片 想念若隐若现
去年的冬天 我们笑得很甜
看着你哭泣的脸 对着我说再见
来不及听见 你已走得很远
也许你已经放弃我
也许已经很难回头
我知道自己错过
请再给我一个理由 说你不爱我
就算是我不懂 能不能原谅我
请不要把分手当作你的请求
我知道坚持要走 是你受伤的藉口
请你回头 我会陪你一直走到最后
就算没有结果 我也能够承受
我知道你的痛 是我给的承诺
你说给过我从容 沉默是因为包容
如果要走 请你记得我
如果难过 请你忘了我
The award ceremony was a very long one. I find it a waste of time. There’s something which I want to say, the school is very cheapskate. There prize wasn’t that well made. The quality is average. From far it looks nice. A close look will be like a shit.
I wonder why the hell the school has to present award for the seniors. Anyway, the award isn’t useful for them after the secondary school life. Not many people of their batch have come to share their joy and glory. So, what is it for? I wonder if all these were for show.
At the reception, the food wasn’t enough. Many KIASU people took a lot. I miss the cream puff. It was finished in just a short time. I guess teacher who have came down late didn’t catch it at all.
Anyway, Jay’s album is out and it’s indeed nice. I’ve also been busy listening to them. LOLX. Anyway, this album’s music is compose by Jay himself and 2 of the songs he composed the lyrics. Anyway, his album has hit 1.08 million in the recent Straits Times for only the past 5 day. I guess the number will keep rising.
Recently got a nice chat with E.T over the net and a little demoralizing I guess. But overall I did learn some things and know how to go about moving on.
Anyway, today is National Day. I would like to say Happy Birthday Singapore. Yesterday heard PM Goh saying his last words. Quite touching I guess and also I would like to say that he has lead Singapore well for the past 14 years. We could see his contributions together with his subordinates. Anyway, Singapore has been prospering only till recent years due to the crisis.
I guess these few days have been great staying at home. I’ve been getting so lazy to get out of the house. I’ve got a new hair cut recently and I seriously like it. Wahaha.
Ok, so here’s some Jay Chou’s Lyrics that I would like to share:
借口
词曲:周杰伦
翻着我们的照片 想念若隐若现
去年的冬天 我们笑得很甜
看着你哭泣的脸 对着我说再见
来不及听见 你已走得很远
也许你已经放弃我
也许已经很难回头
我知道自己错过
请再给我一个理由 说你不爱我
就算是我不懂 能不能原谅我
请不要把分手当作你的请求
我知道坚持要走 是你受伤的藉口
请你回头 我会陪你一直走到最后
就算没有结果 我也能够承受
我知道你的痛 是我给的承诺
你说给过我从容 沉默是因为包容
如果要走 请你记得我
如果难过 请你忘了我
Monday, August 02, 2004
Had a nice chat with SM and SM while walking home. Sometimes friends are great, they help you to forget about problems. Anyway, they've made me blush terribly. =)
Sometimes I wonder, how do gods up there play match making with humans? Was things meant to be? What had happened is it something beyond our control? How do they play with us on their chess board?
Sometimes in relationships, you can be close in distance but not in heart. Why?Displacement? But most people would say, close in heart but not the distance.
I guess often it's due to the differences which both parties have.
Example:
Differences in the way you're bought up in a family causes you to have different type of perception of life. Differences in religions can be one of those too. Many of our thinkings are constructed by how we go about believing things around us.
Anyway, in Love there are many things which both parties have to compromise and accomodate for life. I would like to repeat again, it's for LIFE. Many couples do not come compatible once they come together. Gradually, they find out their differences. If they're able to brush them out, things will be sweet and smooth.
Compromising and Accommodating can be only to be a limit I guess? Living together is not an easy thing. There can be disliking even if you still love the person. My Dad once say, "Find a wife who you want her to go on for LIFE it's not an easy thing. You've got to find the right door that when you close, it'll close properly ("men dang hu dui" in chinese) forever, leaving you no problems no matter how many times you close and open.
His interpretation of "men dang hu dui" is - Naturally, both parties must be able to communicate easily and you've got to feel right for each other. Other factors such as family backgrounds got to match, religions, beliefs and etc. Do not see such as a small problem cause it's about living togther for LIFE. Both parties have to share the same. It's all about similiarities in interest and tihinking.
Some couples manage to last from school days till now and yet differences hasn't brush properly. We do not say actually MUST have lots of similarities, but the manin thing is both parties beliefs and way of communication.
Just think, if you're one who always speaks Chinese and the other who always speaks English. Sadly, you're able to cope with English too but not very well. In terms of communication, wouldn't there be a presence of emptiness? It's a language that is close to you but it's not close to heart. You won't feel that the other part do really understand you. That is what I meant, you can be close in distance but not in heart.
On the other hand, the other party who thinks that things are going on right feel loved, and all the good things are on his/her side. Has he/she given a second thought to the other party? Maybe not till the other party voices out.
Beliefs and thinking is one thing are often cause break ups. Sometimes you couldn't stand the other party's beliefs and you try means for his/her to understand you. At the same time, he/she hopes that you can compromise.
Sometimes it's bought up since young, and it can be so difficult to compromise. Sometimes you've got to let go, it's a signal.
As I listen to Qi Li Xiang..
Yu Xia Zhen Ye..
Wo De Ai Yi Chu Jiu Xiang Yu Shui..
Yes, everyone's love can be like rain, showering on the other party. But when differnces and obstacles come in, there's no space to shower the love. It's just like when you're under the shelter and refuse to step out of it and feel the rain drops on your tender skin.
Sometimes, the endng can be quite sad. Both parties may lose hopes and dreams - Shattered and Clashed.
Heart fill with only emptiness. Sometimes you may just not see it, cause you're in it and thus seeing no wrong in any ways which may affect things. But problems will come soon later. Often, it may also because all the while you've been bought up this way.
Ending can be sad, it's for a LIFE thing. Sigh, maybe that's life.
"Zou Yi Bu Kan Yi Bu Le.."
Sometimes I wonder, how do gods up there play match making with humans? Was things meant to be? What had happened is it something beyond our control? How do they play with us on their chess board?
Sometimes in relationships, you can be close in distance but not in heart. Why?Displacement? But most people would say, close in heart but not the distance.
I guess often it's due to the differences which both parties have.
Example:
Differences in the way you're bought up in a family causes you to have different type of perception of life. Differences in religions can be one of those too. Many of our thinkings are constructed by how we go about believing things around us.
Anyway, in Love there are many things which both parties have to compromise and accomodate for life. I would like to repeat again, it's for LIFE. Many couples do not come compatible once they come together. Gradually, they find out their differences. If they're able to brush them out, things will be sweet and smooth.
Compromising and Accommodating can be only to be a limit I guess? Living together is not an easy thing. There can be disliking even if you still love the person. My Dad once say, "Find a wife who you want her to go on for LIFE it's not an easy thing. You've got to find the right door that when you close, it'll close properly ("men dang hu dui" in chinese) forever, leaving you no problems no matter how many times you close and open.
His interpretation of "men dang hu dui" is - Naturally, both parties must be able to communicate easily and you've got to feel right for each other. Other factors such as family backgrounds got to match, religions, beliefs and etc. Do not see such as a small problem cause it's about living togther for LIFE. Both parties have to share the same. It's all about similiarities in interest and tihinking.
Some couples manage to last from school days till now and yet differences hasn't brush properly. We do not say actually MUST have lots of similarities, but the manin thing is both parties beliefs and way of communication.
Just think, if you're one who always speaks Chinese and the other who always speaks English. Sadly, you're able to cope with English too but not very well. In terms of communication, wouldn't there be a presence of emptiness? It's a language that is close to you but it's not close to heart. You won't feel that the other part do really understand you. That is what I meant, you can be close in distance but not in heart.
On the other hand, the other party who thinks that things are going on right feel loved, and all the good things are on his/her side. Has he/she given a second thought to the other party? Maybe not till the other party voices out.
Beliefs and thinking is one thing are often cause break ups. Sometimes you couldn't stand the other party's beliefs and you try means for his/her to understand you. At the same time, he/she hopes that you can compromise.
Sometimes it's bought up since young, and it can be so difficult to compromise. Sometimes you've got to let go, it's a signal.
As I listen to Qi Li Xiang..
Yu Xia Zhen Ye..
Wo De Ai Yi Chu Jiu Xiang Yu Shui..
Yes, everyone's love can be like rain, showering on the other party. But when differnces and obstacles come in, there's no space to shower the love. It's just like when you're under the shelter and refuse to step out of it and feel the rain drops on your tender skin.
Sometimes, the endng can be quite sad. Both parties may lose hopes and dreams - Shattered and Clashed.
Heart fill with only emptiness. Sometimes you may just not see it, cause you're in it and thus seeing no wrong in any ways which may affect things. But problems will come soon later. Often, it may also because all the while you've been bought up this way.
Ending can be sad, it's for a LIFE thing. Sigh, maybe that's life.
"Zou Yi Bu Kan Yi Bu Le.."
This weekend was a busy one, went to Eileen's Birthday Party and I guess many of us have great time dating one another. Came home around 11.45PM and had sent DC home before that. Hope she has got a great day even though somethings were sad for her. I shan't mention the programmes for that day in detail. Anyway, have great time with the BBQ Chicken Wings. It's my favorite.
Sunday was a sleepy day. But there were tonnes of homework that I've to complete. Therefore, I had to go down the list and chose the important ones to do first. Had a late night yesterday, slept at about 11.30PM. Hence, the wonderful weather today had made me feeling sleepy the whole day. Anyway, had my nap and it was great I should say, even though it was not enough.
I'm POKE in my pocket. Had been spending money on taxi fares. Gosh, how are my meals going to be like over this school week? I can't stop my craving for food. Sigh.
Sunday was a sleepy day. But there were tonnes of homework that I've to complete. Therefore, I had to go down the list and chose the important ones to do first. Had a late night yesterday, slept at about 11.30PM. Hence, the wonderful weather today had made me feeling sleepy the whole day. Anyway, had my nap and it was great I should say, even though it was not enough.
I'm POKE in my pocket. Had been spending money on taxi fares. Gosh, how are my meals going to be like over this school week? I can't stop my craving for food. Sigh.
Friday, July 30, 2004
Tired, tired out by the day. Today had helped out in the parade again and the Sun wasn't friendly at all. I felt so sticky all over me. SM had done a great job as a PC today. She's no longer as nervous nor scare anymore. Maybe crying do made us stronger and that is perhaps why I've seldom shed tears. Sometimes too much hurt is no good, it only makes one stronger and numb to the things which happen before and again.
These days had been busy, so didn't blog. For the past 2 days, I've had never slept well and because there's no much homework, I've been reading "Fatal Seduction". It's quite a nice book and it's really imaginable. Nice in way that the story shows the ugly side of life outside us now.
Friends maybe be saying that, "you say nice because it's a sex book right? Don't act la." Yes, part of it maybe but definitely not totally. I mean who does not have desires? Unless you're a monk and sits in the temple and chant everyday to get rid of the "Qi Qing Liu Yu" and at the same time, gaining wisdom and enlightenment.
Some parts are quite disgusting even though it was not described in detail. Disgusting in the way (not the movements on bed, told you its not actually described in detail!) - why are there women and men so despo? Where's their conscience as a living man? Sadly, many got AIDS as one pass to the other, and the other, and the other and the other and etc. The second last page of the story writes about who passed on the disease to who.
Consequences:
-Family break ups, leaving the children, as one party was unfaithful to another and came back passing it to his/her spouse.
-Break ups in love after knowing the affairs.
It's all break up of relationships in the end and death later. Fish said they are true stories. I don't know, but no doubt there are such things happening around us. I'm disgusted by humans again. Life is no longer like what it use to be where people were so kind and friendly. There are now but minority. You stab me on my back I stab you. It happened in the story too. Many people have hidden motive and usually it's evil. People have start to become more self-centred. Naturally, who want him/her self get killed? Everyone compete with each other to achieve their goals. That is why, we're now living in a competitive world.
Lessons have been quite boring these few days. E.T hasn't been feeling well and thus lesser jokes. He should be fine soon after the weekend. Life hasn't been well too, feeling sleepy everyday.
Looking forward to Eileen's Birthday Party. I guess many of us are goin to have a good gathering and a relaxing time. But first, I've got to have enough sleep.
Qi Li Xiang is going to be out soon. I can't wait to see how Jay's creation is going to be like for his new album. I appreciate his songs, some are nice. I definitely do not appreciate the way he carry himself. He seems like a Big Time Slacker to me. No wonder he has a low education level. But, he has the talent and luck. Ha, enough said. Log off.
These days had been busy, so didn't blog. For the past 2 days, I've had never slept well and because there's no much homework, I've been reading "Fatal Seduction". It's quite a nice book and it's really imaginable. Nice in way that the story shows the ugly side of life outside us now.
Friends maybe be saying that, "you say nice because it's a sex book right? Don't act la." Yes, part of it maybe but definitely not totally. I mean who does not have desires? Unless you're a monk and sits in the temple and chant everyday to get rid of the "Qi Qing Liu Yu" and at the same time, gaining wisdom and enlightenment.
Some parts are quite disgusting even though it was not described in detail. Disgusting in the way (not the movements on bed, told you its not actually described in detail!) - why are there women and men so despo? Where's their conscience as a living man? Sadly, many got AIDS as one pass to the other, and the other, and the other and the other and etc. The second last page of the story writes about who passed on the disease to who.
Consequences:
-Family break ups, leaving the children, as one party was unfaithful to another and came back passing it to his/her spouse.
-Break ups in love after knowing the affairs.
It's all break up of relationships in the end and death later. Fish said they are true stories. I don't know, but no doubt there are such things happening around us. I'm disgusted by humans again. Life is no longer like what it use to be where people were so kind and friendly. There are now but minority. You stab me on my back I stab you. It happened in the story too. Many people have hidden motive and usually it's evil. People have start to become more self-centred. Naturally, who want him/her self get killed? Everyone compete with each other to achieve their goals. That is why, we're now living in a competitive world.
Lessons have been quite boring these few days. E.T hasn't been feeling well and thus lesser jokes. He should be fine soon after the weekend. Life hasn't been well too, feeling sleepy everyday.
Looking forward to Eileen's Birthday Party. I guess many of us are goin to have a good gathering and a relaxing time. But first, I've got to have enough sleep.
Qi Li Xiang is going to be out soon. I can't wait to see how Jay's creation is going to be like for his new album. I appreciate his songs, some are nice. I definitely do not appreciate the way he carry himself. He seems like a Big Time Slacker to me. No wonder he has a low education level. But, he has the talent and luck. Ha, enough said. Log off.
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