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Friday, July 30, 2004

Tired, tired out by the day. Today had helped out in the parade again and the Sun wasn't friendly at all. I felt so sticky all over me. SM had done a great job as a PC today. She's no longer as nervous nor scare anymore. Maybe crying do made us stronger and that is perhaps why I've seldom shed tears. Sometimes too much hurt is no good, it only makes one stronger and numb to the things which happen before and again.

These days had been busy, so didn't blog. For the past 2 days, I've had never slept well and because there's no much homework, I've been reading "Fatal Seduction". It's quite a nice book and it's really imaginable. Nice in way that the story shows the ugly side of life outside us now.

Friends maybe be saying that, "you say nice because it's a sex book right? Don't act la." Yes, part of it maybe but definitely not totally. I mean who does not have desires? Unless you're a monk and sits in the temple and chant everyday to get rid of the "Qi Qing Liu Yu" and at the same time, gaining wisdom and enlightenment.  

Some parts are quite disgusting even though it was not described in detail. Disgusting in the way (not the movements on bed, told you its not actually described in detail!) - why are there women and men so despo? Where's their conscience as a living man? Sadly, many got AIDS as one pass to the other, and the other, and the other and the other and etc. The second last page of the story writes about who passed on the disease to who.

Consequences:
-Family break ups, leaving the children, as one party was unfaithful to another and came back passing it to his/her spouse.

-Break ups in love after knowing the affairs.

It's all break up of relationships in the end and death later. Fish said they are true stories. I don't know, but no doubt there are such things happening around us. I'm disgusted by humans again. Life is no longer like what it use to be where people were so kind and friendly. There are now but minority. You stab me on my back I stab you. It happened in the story too. Many people have hidden motive and usually it's evil. People have start to become more self-centred. Naturally, who want him/her self get killed? Everyone compete with each other to achieve their goals. That is why, we're now living in a competitive world.

Lessons have been quite boring these few days. E.T hasn't been feeling well and thus lesser jokes. He should be fine soon after the weekend. Life hasn't been well too, feeling sleepy everyday.

Looking forward to Eileen's Birthday Party. I guess many of us are goin to have a good gathering and a relaxing time. But first, I've got to have enough sleep.

Qi Li Xiang is going to be out soon. I can't wait to see how Jay's creation is going to be like for his new album. I appreciate his songs, some are nice. I definitely do not appreciate the way he carry himself. He seems like a Big Time Slacker to me. No wonder he has a low education level. But, he has the talent and luck. Ha, enough said. Log off.