Pre-mature Greying of Hair.

Yes, I'm suffering from this.

Worse than ever during my studying time.

Top of my head, a patch of hair are greying up.

None of my family members has any history of this.

The most common of all is only a few strands.

I wonder what has the past 10 months got me into.

Eccentrically insane?

Researched:

Grey hair, gives the indication of improper protein synthesis. The pigment melanin is responsible for the change of hair colours. Early greying of the hair is basically hereditary, and we can inherit it from one of our parents or grandparents.

Grey hair can also be influenced by stress. A person experiencing a prolonged period of stress and anxiety may notice, over a period of time, white hairs gradually appearing. Malnutrition, worry, shock, deep sorrow, tension and other similar conditions may also slow down the production of melanin resulting in grey hair.

Gonna dye it BLACK.

SO MUCH TO BLOG ABOUT, LIFESTYLES & EVERYTHING.

Blog song changed as well according to mood and this was something I came across through a friend. In this, it brings me back many memories during that period of my childhood.

Have been a little sick lately. Now, I can and know what drugs to dispense for myself for normal sickness.

Well, I wonder if it's due to the rushing up and down from work, then to school.

Improper dinner every alternate days.

I guess age is really catching up.

I used to teach tuition and woke up as early as 7 on a Saturday. So am I doing so nowadays, going for tutorial lessons in the morning for a good 3 hours.

Well, in the past my day for Saturday end on a Sunday morning of 3-4am and would usually wake up again on a 11am basis the next. Today, I slept till 3PM.

It has been sometime since we all start bowling again, and watching mid-night movie till 3AM. Past weeks has been busy for everyone I guess, busy with our very own life.

Lesser parties nowadays and getting on with serious business in life.

It has been a LONG away break from civilian life, and through these 2 years, there happened a LONG break for me (really slacker life after 1 year soldier) and BIG break of course. Well, engine are all kicking in, life is starting to be busy, just like before enlisted.

The last was Henessy Artistry Party @ St. James's PH. It was a great event, manage to smoke 5 invitation in exchange for 10 guests. 5 for JK's friend, including myself and J plus 4 other friends.

There I was in the queue and video camera pop out. Well, I wonder if that short clip of mine would appear anywhere online for the event. Some artists, models, medias and etc were present. Totally a different atmosphere from the normal clubbing scene. Free flow of mixes. It was great definitely.

Well, St. James PH has became my turf for bridging relationships with people. Getting 7 people in at 'under table' basis of 100 bucks with people. Cutting the VIP queue and getting friend in for free; causing the ladies behind to go like O.o?!

haha.

Well, people nowadays are getting on and off relationships with people. People are moving on faster than before. But, well. I guess single is good. No hurt, no pain, no responsibilities.

Today, I earn, I spend myself happily. Well, dates? I had a few dates for 2-3 weeks past a couple of months back. Well, they ain't having any true feelings involve. They were just infatuations people have I suppose? Well, I've stopped completely. It's a waste of my time/energy and money. =.=

Love is a natural occuring process. It's not about sweet words and chasing after. It ain't about dating, finding nor looking.

I guess I prefer making more good girls friends, knowing and learning more in upcoming years.

From time to time, having some good meals with friends/buddies/besties, buying them meals are far better off than spending on unnecessary dates. In here, building a lifetime relationships with them, I found fulfillment as well.

Spare time? Loneliness? Nah, please. There are many more self-developments things which you can do.

Like my Doctor also my friend, at the age of 27, he earn his own, drive his own, spend his own, carefree, date when he is interested in someone but well, he date those who he has been friends for 4-5 years?

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I guess a true relationship is about knowing someone, somebody as friend for a year and even for many more years to come. It's when you knew and fully seen all his/her imperfections. You love him/her very true self and his or her past. It's probably being very best friends for years.

Romance are just little actions which you give from time to time, the love the care the concern despite years.

Someday, reality will set in. Managing family, finances and the many routine and mundane stuff in life, sweet words becomes more hypocritical.


Love is like when you formed True Partnership, like best friends in working every way out, never giving up this life time.

Well, humans will never be satisfied and everything will become bored one day. Ultimately, we've got to understand where our contentment lies and tell ourselves it's enough, and the rest that you get are bonus. Then, no expectations or anything further from your partner.

I guess I still believe in the last statement ultimately in marriage vows; "will you take care and be there for your spouse despite wealth and health."

Although as hypothetical as it can be from the above statement; as long as your spouse is trying their best to give what they could for you, with a heart, what else can you expect for?

He/she needs to love you at your ugliest look as ever happen before and the ugliest things you do and be there at where you are.

Probably when you're down with fever and whatever, he/she is there taking care of you through the night, making sure you're at best treated.

Sometimes, I wonder how can I ever really take myself to love someone again? Is like, I once did my best with all that I could. It was never a failure, but a well lesson learned as they say.

They always moved on to fill their void.

Do you ever remember those times where just holding onto someone's hand, sweetness just seep through both of your hands? Are you ready to really take care of someone?

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FOR YOU

Well, no one is at fault today. It's the skills of managing the relationship I guess. Well, some of my friends broke up too, they end up happy best friends. Some patched, some are still cool.

Sometimes, I wished the break up wasn't a phone call, wasn't a simple letter. It was suppose to be a talk, a nice one where very much of honest unhappiness should be voiced.

Well, I can be understanding towards the character, the way you are. Perhaps so, things just went your way. Hence, 'my way'; a more appropriate way which I suppose, wasn't carried out.

I guess Love is selfish? It's never fair to either party then.

Today, if it were ever happened to me, when she ASKED. I would say honestly upfront, "I love her, and we can't work out. My apologies, but we can always be friends."

Sometimes, I do wish today situations were better off. Perhaps, for that basic respect, for how long you have knew someone, for the sake of friendship, for the sake of the no. of happy years spent, honesty was a baseline for being responsible.

It isn't about who doesn't owe who what nor who owe who what. It's respect and responsibility for someone, somebody, a friend.

Running to allow time to resolve everything, one day, someday?

Today when you have started another relationship, how would you end things off maturely and more professionally if everything were to end one day?

well, 老牛吃嫩草; there's still working environment, very much more changes to come when things becomes bored and not as fresh one day. If someone were once to be a bastard, he/she will be a bastard twice as I believe.

There are many more years to come and counting on.

So how do you see the value of a relationship today?

You break off with your someone and get on with someone a few days/weeks later, because you have fallen for someone else?

Well, ex-CPL Armour Tech.

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LIFESTYLE: Skin Care

Recently, I've brought 7 skin care products as recommended by my Doctor from Sasa.

From toner to hydrating moisturizer, to sun screen cream, BB cream, makeup remover for BB cream, daily cleanser, exfoliate wash.

Most of it are products from Japan and Korea, only the exfoliate one is from Swiss.

Methods and care for your skin:

Well, exfoliate once a week and after exfoliate, do a clarifying mask. This is where your inner skin is more exposed and sensitive. Clarifying mask will absorb all impurities more appropriately. Say a Sunday then.

Differing cream use ONLY once/twice a week at night, you need to get Doctor's prescription for this. But well, it will aggravate pimples if you use it too frequent. Say Wednesday & Saturday NIGHT?

Every day after daily wash, have toner on, followed by hydrating moisturizer, Acne Cream if applicable on affected areas (only at night for none serious cases), Sun screen/BB Cream.

So you left with Monday, Tues, Thurs and Friday night.

You can have anti-wrinkled/anti sag cream to be applied on your eye areas on these days. Well, before that, you can have 100% PURE Aloe Vera to hydrate your skin if time permits. Leave it on for 15 minutes and WASH OFF.

Any facial products you use, try not to contain any form of ALCOHOL content. It will cause your pores to open more, sensitive, promote dryness, if not appropriately taken care of.

Can check out these brands, DR.G, Juju (toner and hydrating moisturizer) and Dermalogica. They are the top selling brands.

Lastly, do not keep changing skin care products once you have really use the good ones. Stick to it. Otherwise it'll be bad for your skin.

Well, that's not all, I'm still learning.

I'm trying to finish all my leftovers before I offically start on the ones I brought. Hopefully, by the time I ORD-ed.

It's really great to know Doctors, and I mean not the normal GP but Specialized ones. LOL. I know a number of them, from gynecologist (can help my wife to deliver), Pediatric Doctor (see my child for any case)and Orthopedic Doctor (when I'm old or have bone injuries). Well, I also got to know hairstylist Recruit who works at Jean Yip for 3-4 years earning like 3-4K per month as Senior Hairstylist. =.=

Well, interesting.

Have you ever wonder… (extracted from http://newheightslifecoaching.typepad.com) with personal reviews...

Have you ever wondered: “Why is our relationship so hard? Things were so perfect when we first met - what happened?” Most likely, the answer is that you’ve left the first stage of your relationship, and have moved into another.

many a times we left feelings unresolved and moved on to another r/s. through time, we almost forgotten how the most real feelings was like to be in a true r/s. maybe like what C told me, even though she might be with a new guy now, she still misses her ex. but all she did was to psychologically tell herself that things has changed or he had change and isn't the one she loves. yet, it seems that through time, people actually do play a part in the deepest part of our souls.

so what happen today? is it ego that are keeping us from the many things we wish to salvage in life? or is it the case that people can actually forget those beautiful memories? only when we experience the hurt again, only then we'll learn to appreciate what has always been there?

But could it really be that easy?

Yes! Most people understand that relationships grow and change over time… but what many people don’t know is that they tend to evolve in the same way. There are specific, defined stages of long-term relationships, which offer new feelings, new challenges to overcome, and new opportunities for growth. And if you want your relationship to evolve into one of mutual respect, love and intimacy, it’s likely that you’ll have to experience all of the following relationship stages at some point or another. Take a look at the description of each phase – does any of this sound familiar?

Before we get started, you should know that most people experience these stages in this order, and will need to resolve the challenges in each stage before they can move successfully on to the next. Of course there are always exceptions to this rule. But for the most part, you can’t get out of experiencing all of these stages if you want a healthy and fulfilling relationship. Every couple will move through these stages at different speeds, and most people will experience each stage more than once – it is common to fluctuate from one stage to another.*

Okay, now that I’ve given you the basic info, let’s dig a little deeper….

5 Stages of Committed Relationships

Stage 1 – The Romance Stage

This is also known as the Courtship Phase or the Fantasy Stage, and can last anywhere from 2 months to 2 years. This is when you and your partner have just met, and everything is absolutely amazing (that's where they say love is blind, and one day you get shot and woke up from your dreams). You can’t get enough of each other. Neither of you can do any wrong in the eyes of the other… mainly because you’re both still on your best behavior. The focus in this stage is on commonalities – you have so many common interests, you could practically be the same person! You show your partner your absolute best self, and you try to please each other as much as possible. Conflict is seen as “bad” in this stage, and is avoided at all costs. You can’t imagine living without this person, so you begin spending as much time together as possible. This is the stage when our defenses are down the most, which allows you to be open to and fall in love. You and your partner are building an important foundation in this stage, so your relationship can grow. There are biological effects as well. When you’re in this stage, your body is producing enormous amounts of endorphins, which makes you feel unusually happy, positive and excited about everything in your life (this is that “head over heels in love” feeling!). This is the stage most often portrayed in movies and romantic novels, for obvious reasons. Bottom line – you are happier than you’ve ever been, and can’t imagine ever feeling any differently.

Stage 2 – The Disillusionment Stage

This stage is also known as the Familiarization Stage, or the Adjusting to Reality Phase. This is where you begin to realize that your partner is actually a human being (horror of horrors!). You get to know each other more and more, and as a result you start recognizing their various flaws and shortcomings. You see your partner in relaxed situations, and you become more relaxed as well. Since your body cannot possibly continue to produce the same levels of endorphins that it was in the beginning, those feelings of being on top of the world start to decline. Your partner’s little habits aren’t quite as cute as they used to be, but there is still enough goodwill from the Romance Stage that you’re willing to overlook them. This stage can start to trickle into your relationship slowly, as you begin to see your partner for who s/he really is. Or sometimes it happens all of a sudden, when there has been some sort of dishonesty or deceit. This phase can be confusing and discouraging, since you’ve just experienced so much openness and connection in the Romance Stage. However, at this stage, your main job is to learn how to communicate and resolve conflict with this person effectively, which is an important skill if you want your relationship to continue.

Stage 3 – The Power Struggle Stage

This stage is also known as the Disappointment Phase or Distress Stage. As the characteristics from the Disillusionment Phase intensify, they become harder and harder to deal with. You will most likely begin to pull away from each other in this stage. At this point, you both still believe that conflict is a “bad” thing, but you are increasingly aware of your many differences. You fight to draw boundaries in the relationship, and as a result even small annoyances become big issues. This is the stage where you define unacceptable behavior, and most couples have occasional or frequent thoughts of leaving the relationship. More and more often, you start to feel like your partner is self-centered or un-caring, or even worse, that they simply can’t be trusted. Deep resentments begin to build if you’re unable to resolve your issues in a respectful and mutually agreeable way. Many couples get stuck in this stage, because this way of interacting becomes normal in their relationship. This is when it is absolutely necessary to learn to manage your differences effectively - to communicate and work together as a team, even though it’s tempting to believe that your partner’s sole purpose on Earth is to make your life difficult. Not surprisingly, this is the stage most couples are in when they decide to break up or file for divorce. However, if they are able to negotiate all of the landmines during this phase, they’ll move on to….

Stage 4 – The Stability Stage

This is a restful and peaceful time, compared to the last stage. This stage is also known as the Friendship Phase or Reconciliation Stage. Some couples never make it to this stage, but the ones who do find that they have deeper feelings of love, connection and trust with their partner. You now have history together, and most people begin to rely on the predictability of the relationship. As you enter this stage, you begin to realize that your partner isn’t perfect, but your personal differences aren’t quite as threatening as they used to be. You’re able to resolve most of your differences, at least to some extent, and you become more confident in the relationship. Some people feel a sense of loss in this stage as they learn to accept their partner for who they truly are, since this means they have to let go of the fantasy that was established early on in the relationship. But for the most part, the deepening sense of friendship and commitment is a good trade-off for those early feelings of butterflies and excitement. This is also when you begin to re-establish your own outside interests and friendships, which were given up in the Romance Phase. There is some danger that you may begin to drift apart from or become bored with your partner in this phase, so you should try to maintain the connection that was created in the Romance Phase. Overall, this is the stage when you finally begin to feel comfortable and happy with your deepening relationship.

Stage 5 – The Commitment Stage

This stage is also known as the Acceptance Phase, the Transformation Stage, or the Real Love Phase. It is estimated that fewer than 5% of couples actually make it to this stage, according to The Relationship Institute. This is the stage when both couples have a clear notion of who their partner is, faults, foibles and weaknesses galore… yet they make a conscious choice to be with this person in spite of all of those things (and in some cases, because of those things). You are no longer with your partner because you need them, but because you’ve chosen them, which means the level of resentment you felt in the Power Struggle Phase has decreased, if not disappeared. If you’ve made it to this stage, you and your partner are a team. You genuinely love your partner, and you look out for their best interests just as much as you look out for your own. Your partner is your best friend. There are few surprises about your partner's habits or character in this phase. You’ve collaborated to overcome many challenges together, and have grown to accept and support each other without restriction. Your vision for your relationship is in congruence with who you are and what you both truly want. You have discussed your future together - you have similar life goals, and you feel encouraged to define your relationship further. Many couples decide to make a formal or public commitment to each other in this stage (such as marriage) to demonstrate their intention to continue their relationship. This is the stage in which your relationship becomes a true partnership.

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so what are you going for today?

butterflies in your stomach? romance?

or do you find someone who truly loves you?

i was once told, all it matters was how much you love me.

i guess no matter how long you date doesn't matter. wedding ceremonies doesn't matter as well.

what matters is, how long can you truly love somebody and hurdle through the many things in reality and creates a true relationship at the end of the day?

sometimes, i wonder where is the true value of a relationship which you have formed with somebody.

but well, love is blind as they say.

and change is as good as the end of a chapter or a death of a person.

everyone knows.

"why cherish people who doesn't cherish you?"

"what you've understood today, isn't what she does."

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Dear CPL Armour Technician Boy,

you better do what's right.

i've got all the fuck details i have of you.

take good care of your weak body.

i don't blame you for all the ugly situation and results we all have today.

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Well, life's been busy.

Lessons have started.

Studies and career are my top priority.

Language studies are upcoming next, and so much so for playing of strings.

Good news for my investments.

Maturity are soon to come.

So does ORD.

Fitness are maintaining well. Running 5KM every now and then with my Doctor. Trying to clock between 15 ~20 minutes @ 5Km. i think it's good enough and running every other 2 days, toning at every other alternate days @ gym.

Otherwise, how to eat more nice and good food?!

Infusion for patients getting more and more skillful esp. after giving medical lessons for the special breed and more and more practice with the no. of patients and casualties from day to day.

shall focus and work hard and smart for the next 3 years.

life is short, live it well.

we don't have much time to lose.

keep learning, don't stop.

Cheers! =)

as per requested by my dear friends who loves to read on my perspectives on r/s, love etc.

since then, i'm thinking of revamping my whole blog or probably shift to a new one with animations n etc involve, maybe on lifestyles, fashion, food, and human relationships. who knows i may become a celebrity blogger? haha. dream dream. wait till i fully get my laptop fixed, and master dreamwaver with photoshop cs5.

my bro did, i don't believe i couldn't.

give me some time then.

i wanted to keep it simple, but well.. we should get complicated. or life is.. isn't it?

maybe i should ask myself why i should stop typing?

sorry for any tenses and etc for this entry. i kinda cant be bothered to type properly at sucha time.

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在你左右

你是否曾想过你最爱的人欺骗过你吗？

有些人能够很潇洒的拿起让后放下

有些人不管时间过了多久都会怀旧

今天的你属于了那一类型的人?

maybe like what my brother shared with me the other day... humans are never satisfied.

you have been there, always there. there are many little things which you may have done, the efforts, your sweat; your persistence brought you through time. people's lifestyle changes, perspective about many things changes.

things started to be taken for granted. i.e. for the little thing you brought, all your heart and soul was probably a token hoping that this little gift would be a charm to protect the dearest one you love. yet, you probably seen it chucked aside. disappointed?

i was kinda chatting with L, then i was mentioning about this bag of greenbeans which my grandma probably gave it to be while i was young. till today, it's still in my couple, power rangers pencil case, envelopes and etc. even say stickers, which i probably used a few, i would at least keep the last one just to remember that it was once grandma/aunt who brought me. today when i see it, i'll remember who has given me what, though the place/date that is probably not recorded.

many of us love to receive surprises, love and etc. immediately, we were touched by what's given to us. (we're all visual creatures) however, why not have the image that flashes in your mind; how has he go about doing so? how was his effort? how did he do it? even for the simplest thing that he has done, say packing meals and etc; have you thought about the long queue/waiting time, how he has travel just to deliver it to you?

i'm not trying to ask you to weigh or calculate love for all that you've given.

love is about appreciating, isn't it? sometimes or often than not, when it has been there, always there; every little thing was forgotten/not seen. we don't often remember the good little things such as the aforementioned. so i hope those who are in love, sees this.

we probably remember those impactful ones, hurtful ones, BIG surprise one.

you know when do man start to feel tired about r/s? when he/she has given all, but least feel appreciated at the end of the day. energizing man to do things for you is easy, but you got to get your language right.

有人说你越恨就是越爱.

weird huh? sometimes we're so blinded by hatred which was cause by another party that we actually forget how much we do actually love them.

could you ever recall how the soul that was joined so fully as one? the trust, the bond, the TRUE love that was built over time.

mind you, no one enters the stage of TRUE love till about 3-4 years and more. And, you'll experience, "fall in love" with your partner again. only then, it'll be even more beautiful. only when more hurdles are crossed, differences are brushed, only then it'll evolve, yet still knowing how to appreciate one another. otherwise, the first 3 years are probably still on discovering process, where lust and passion are still burning HOT.

when you first truly love someone, it isn't about his/her looks, it isn't about his/her talents or capability. you fell in love with his/her flaws which looks so beautiful to you.

you don't nor can you love someone ALOT everyday. you love someone a little more each day, and you love him/her more or less on different days. you'll always think about him/her irregardless of where you are; your concern and curiosity about him/her despite time & place.

what has your mind deny you of, today?

the day your wife die, only then she's called yours.

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S will hate me for the next part. but i'll only reflect the truth about reality.

when you're in love, you feel butterflies in your stomach, but words play the part.

when you never thought that there's an ending, we forgot that passion dies.

i believe actions through time speaks louder than words and even beliefs.

today if a girl were to leave her BF for me, she will do so once again.

however, women do love men to sweet-talk them. only then they feel they are loved.

yet, at the end, they are the ones who will hurt you most. sad, but it's a fact.

today, you may think why am i not entering one? i know my time hasn't come, i've got 8 years long to chose or even more.

when you enter one r/s, it isn't about trial an error, it isn't about filling your void. it's when you know you will love and care for that someone despite health and wealth, this life-time.

somehow, i made pretty much good girlfriends whom i can often chat with.. be it phone/sms/msn. And i mean i do really take them as FRIENDS and no other intentions.

love is a natural occurrence process. don't have to find nor look for it.

time is still early. you'll have the best to come. =)

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爱情是撒旦送来的礼物

拆开之后

你的人生就陷入万劫不复

爱情是毒菜穿的糖衣

甜美的包装不是致命的危机

爱情是残酷的游戏

当你好不容易鼓起勇气

付出真心的时候

再一次让你陷入失望的绝境

真心是笑话
勇气是废话
坚持是鬼话
忠贞是梦话
幸福是屁话

一生一世的相恋或许只是出现在言情小说里面的情节...

have i satisfy your appetite?

basic military talk is on episode 4 now. mine is probably 6/7... still a long way before the video surfaces. =.=