Life Update.
Life has been busy. 1 month of rest goes to Taiwan, Taipei and HongKong. All the fun and joy. Currently working in GoodRich, good to be rich; an aviation manufacturing industry. It's probably the next in thing. However, I'm in the Human Resource department. Burning hours of my life slacking for money. Some weeks busy, some weeks slack like shit.
Working full-time plus tuition will make me rich for the next few months. All goes to the saving for the future. Anticipating Army too, I mean I can't wait to ORD. LOL. Not yet start but anticipating ORD.
Life's busy busy. Maximising each day and each week end. Time will fly and we're all working for the sake of future and money.
If I'm dying one day, God please allow me to know in advance. I'll do better things.
The Bucket List is a good movie. With inspirations for life. If you have the time, go download it.
More talk cocks the next time. Rest time for me.
Saturday, April 19, 2008
Saturday, March 15, 2008
The End. A New Stage.
This is a 2 page essay dedicated to AD34...
Now the mood comes, and of course it came after reading the post from KJ. Things need to be clarified. If it’s done face to face, situations will either get worse or the class will bond once again and to a higher level. Like what we learned in CSAS 1, a group will get better after a storm. It’s just a passing stage. However, I guess with different perceptions, grudges are bound to be held in the heart.
I hope that this post will help the class get together, be more understanding towards each other. Let’s not think about whether doing these is worth for this person or don’t. Let’s treat all equally and doing it for the worthiness of class bondage, for friendships, for more friends and not enemies.
Personally, I have too. I have grudges for accusations, for the many things I have not done against various people in the class. I sense the eyes and the talks behind my back. After the 3 years, and after spending some time alone, I would say thanks to AD34. For those who have been acting, you can finally put to a stop. The following said are sincere words and not sarcasm or “fake” words which you guys may regard as…
Thank you AD34 for making my life in polytechnic colorful. We had good times, we had bad times. The problem with us is we just do not dare to face each other and mistrust grew fonder. Of course, the different amount of effort that was put into different projects makes certain people dislike certain people further. Life being colorful isn’t about just the good times. It consists of bad times in which whether a not we have overcome them.
Definitely here are people whom I may wish to mention. However, it’s not fault picking nor like what KJ said, to stir up a war. No offence seriously.
First and foremost, I would like to thank Alistair for being a great buddy for the past 3 years. In many good and bad times, you had been with me. Although sometimes, you’re overly kiasu-er than me, but I understand your desperateness to stay competitive in the cohort. We had shared the mental shag-ness in DB, and you had shared my pain, my happiness by being a great listener and consoler. I thank you and regard you as my best of all friends in my polytechnic years. Thank you for your trust, understanding and whatever help you have given when I needed them.
Here’s the discussion of the class. The class could have been very bonded. However, the key lies on 3 major people in the class. They are considered as influential to certain people, and would lead the unwilling ones to go even.
Of course there are always the anything people and quit spotting. The people who are of course anything are the group of wonderful Malay classmates whom I seriously appreciate, me, Alistair, Ruben and of course SC.
First of all is Wei Ming. You have the persuasive ability to make the girls in the class to attend for anything. As long as u speak. Hence, semester 2.2 class chalet was a success. You voiced your interest and a few of us actually further developed it. Your weakness is by mood. When you’re happy, you can go very well with anyone. You like to choose what you like to do, what you feel is worth or not worth doing. Hence, you’ve brought 2 girls with you in year 3 with other groups of friends in the cohort. The class split as you’ve neglected your form class.
Although I’ve said that you’re the one who forged the attendance for Wang Liang, to a few people. It’s because I saw it and like YL prompted me if I had done. You know no one likes to be accused. However, since you insist that you didn’t. I don’t blame people to think that I am finding fault with you or tries to create a scene. My conscience is clear. And that perhaps in a way, I’ve remember wrongly or you’ve forgotten what you’ve done since it’s actually a small matter to us? I bare no grudges against you and I hope that you don’t too. For any misunderstandings, I here to apologies and I do not wish to make enemies with anyone. Hence, for the rest of the people in the class, let’s put this incident aside.
The second person is Yuan Long. You’re an escapist. You have the ability to bond with 3 guys, namely KJ, SC and WL. You have the ability to persuade them but you chose the path of not opening your heart to more friends. You make friends EASIER with people you sympathize with, feeling that they’re like your situations. Those who make friends easily, you tend to shift from them. You understand people, but you don’t quit get yourself. Perhaps, its past experiences which shaped you that way. You got to open your heart and accept more variety of people in life. It’ll be good.
The third person is silent Jeremy. I do not blame you because your character is anti-social. I’ve known you through internship. It was great understanding you. If you’re spotting with the class, I guess most of the time ZW or Shuan will attend, more people, the merrier.
For many who’re thinking about the incident between me, shahrez and wei lian. It was a problem of friendship and love. I am not playing the 3rd party of course, I’ve got a girlfriend. It’ll still remain as a past and not be revealed to the rest of the class due to the need to respect privacy of others. Thank you Shahrez for letting me learned that hard way. I still and love you as my CB! Good Friend. =). I will not forget the help you gave for my UO2, and allowed me to attain a B+.
For that incident, I also would like to comment something for Peishan (Do not be offended). Do not act blur because sometimes in life when you know there’s no turn back, you need to stand for what’s justified at the back of your mind, for what you’ve see or hear, then things would be easier to handle. At least for this case, I wouldn’t need to try so hard to explain myself. Perhaps you take consequence as finding trouble for yourself, but you may complicate people and situations further. No offence or you can take it no serious matter.
The next person is; Suhua. Do not discriminate people for things they’ve done be it right or wrong, be it known or unknown situations. Let’s learn to forgive and forget, then you don’t have to act. I hope that you do not regard people or be wary of people as “fake”. As learned in sociology, things will be a self-labeled and physiologically, you’ll be affected. You’ll never be able to accept them back. Making more friends is better than making more enemies isn’t it? Then, hope you control your temper and mood bah… otherwise sometimes you may just spoil the relationship with people.
Never forgetting the thanks… Thank you to you Ruben, for trusting and companying me through one of my saddest moment in polytechnic life at CPTC. Thanks. You’ve been a regarded as a great friend I know, the super UP social skills you have. It’s impressive, seriously.
As for Gowri, you may be the toughest person to deal with for my 3 years for various assignments with you. However, you’ve made me learn to deal with more variety of people and you made me stronger team player, and improved my editing skills. Perhaps, your project skills maybe as private limited as my knowledge. Hence, we balanced up. No more grudges but thanks.
Lastly, it will be for Shuan. If less sarcasm and suaning from you, you could have made more true friends rather than activities friends whom you laugh along with. That’s the path you chose though. No blames. I’ve learned to be less serious with those sarcasms/ suans which you have gave. You made me a better survivor. Thanks too. But you owe a apology to Alistair for the RED slippers!
All the best for the future! Once again, thanks (w/love & understanding).
Semester 2.2 Class Chalet
This is a 2 page essay dedicated to AD34...
Now the mood comes, and of course it came after reading the post from KJ. Things need to be clarified. If it’s done face to face, situations will either get worse or the class will bond once again and to a higher level. Like what we learned in CSAS 1, a group will get better after a storm. It’s just a passing stage. However, I guess with different perceptions, grudges are bound to be held in the heart.
I hope that this post will help the class get together, be more understanding towards each other. Let’s not think about whether doing these is worth for this person or don’t. Let’s treat all equally and doing it for the worthiness of class bondage, for friendships, for more friends and not enemies.
Personally, I have too. I have grudges for accusations, for the many things I have not done against various people in the class. I sense the eyes and the talks behind my back. After the 3 years, and after spending some time alone, I would say thanks to AD34. For those who have been acting, you can finally put to a stop. The following said are sincere words and not sarcasm or “fake” words which you guys may regard as…
Thank you AD34 for making my life in polytechnic colorful. We had good times, we had bad times. The problem with us is we just do not dare to face each other and mistrust grew fonder. Of course, the different amount of effort that was put into different projects makes certain people dislike certain people further. Life being colorful isn’t about just the good times. It consists of bad times in which whether a not we have overcome them.
Definitely here are people whom I may wish to mention. However, it’s not fault picking nor like what KJ said, to stir up a war. No offence seriously.
First and foremost, I would like to thank Alistair for being a great buddy for the past 3 years. In many good and bad times, you had been with me. Although sometimes, you’re overly kiasu-er than me, but I understand your desperateness to stay competitive in the cohort. We had shared the mental shag-ness in DB, and you had shared my pain, my happiness by being a great listener and consoler. I thank you and regard you as my best of all friends in my polytechnic years. Thank you for your trust, understanding and whatever help you have given when I needed them.
Here’s the discussion of the class. The class could have been very bonded. However, the key lies on 3 major people in the class. They are considered as influential to certain people, and would lead the unwilling ones to go even.
Of course there are always the anything people and quit spotting. The people who are of course anything are the group of wonderful Malay classmates whom I seriously appreciate, me, Alistair, Ruben and of course SC.
First of all is Wei Ming. You have the persuasive ability to make the girls in the class to attend for anything. As long as u speak. Hence, semester 2.2 class chalet was a success. You voiced your interest and a few of us actually further developed it. Your weakness is by mood. When you’re happy, you can go very well with anyone. You like to choose what you like to do, what you feel is worth or not worth doing. Hence, you’ve brought 2 girls with you in year 3 with other groups of friends in the cohort. The class split as you’ve neglected your form class.
Although I’ve said that you’re the one who forged the attendance for Wang Liang, to a few people. It’s because I saw it and like YL prompted me if I had done. You know no one likes to be accused. However, since you insist that you didn’t. I don’t blame people to think that I am finding fault with you or tries to create a scene. My conscience is clear. And that perhaps in a way, I’ve remember wrongly or you’ve forgotten what you’ve done since it’s actually a small matter to us? I bare no grudges against you and I hope that you don’t too. For any misunderstandings, I here to apologies and I do not wish to make enemies with anyone. Hence, for the rest of the people in the class, let’s put this incident aside.
The second person is Yuan Long. You’re an escapist. You have the ability to bond with 3 guys, namely KJ, SC and WL. You have the ability to persuade them but you chose the path of not opening your heart to more friends. You make friends EASIER with people you sympathize with, feeling that they’re like your situations. Those who make friends easily, you tend to shift from them. You understand people, but you don’t quit get yourself. Perhaps, its past experiences which shaped you that way. You got to open your heart and accept more variety of people in life. It’ll be good.
The third person is silent Jeremy. I do not blame you because your character is anti-social. I’ve known you through internship. It was great understanding you. If you’re spotting with the class, I guess most of the time ZW or Shuan will attend, more people, the merrier.
For many who’re thinking about the incident between me, shahrez and wei lian. It was a problem of friendship and love. I am not playing the 3rd party of course, I’ve got a girlfriend. It’ll still remain as a past and not be revealed to the rest of the class due to the need to respect privacy of others. Thank you Shahrez for letting me learned that hard way. I still and love you as my CB! Good Friend. =). I will not forget the help you gave for my UO2, and allowed me to attain a B+.
For that incident, I also would like to comment something for Peishan (Do not be offended). Do not act blur because sometimes in life when you know there’s no turn back, you need to stand for what’s justified at the back of your mind, for what you’ve see or hear, then things would be easier to handle. At least for this case, I wouldn’t need to try so hard to explain myself. Perhaps you take consequence as finding trouble for yourself, but you may complicate people and situations further. No offence or you can take it no serious matter.
The next person is; Suhua. Do not discriminate people for things they’ve done be it right or wrong, be it known or unknown situations. Let’s learn to forgive and forget, then you don’t have to act. I hope that you do not regard people or be wary of people as “fake”. As learned in sociology, things will be a self-labeled and physiologically, you’ll be affected. You’ll never be able to accept them back. Making more friends is better than making more enemies isn’t it? Then, hope you control your temper and mood bah… otherwise sometimes you may just spoil the relationship with people.
Never forgetting the thanks… Thank you to you Ruben, for trusting and companying me through one of my saddest moment in polytechnic life at CPTC. Thanks. You’ve been a regarded as a great friend I know, the super UP social skills you have. It’s impressive, seriously.
As for Gowri, you may be the toughest person to deal with for my 3 years for various assignments with you. However, you’ve made me learn to deal with more variety of people and you made me stronger team player, and improved my editing skills. Perhaps, your project skills maybe as private limited as my knowledge. Hence, we balanced up. No more grudges but thanks.
Lastly, it will be for Shuan. If less sarcasm and suaning from you, you could have made more true friends rather than activities friends whom you laugh along with. That’s the path you chose though. No blames. I’ve learned to be less serious with those sarcasms/ suans which you have gave. You made me a better survivor. Thanks too. But you owe a apology to Alistair for the RED slippers!
All the best for the future! Once again, thanks (w/love & understanding).
Semester 2.2 Class ChaletShahrez's One Man Show:
Sunday, January 27, 2008
A Denial of Deception
A denial of deception. How great this suits the theme of my blog all these while. At that point of time, I remember clearly what happened... I knew deep down inside... However, there was a denial of deception even if a direct question was asked.
Time flies, without knowing some of us are either 20 or turning 20. Life becomes more complicated as we grew older. It's US, ourselves who made it complicated. When we were young, we were all so pure, as we grew older, we're contaminated by the surrounding. Or should I say adults who did not show good enough examples?
I still remember days ago, I shared this part of my memory with PS. Telling her how I was accused and caned innocently during my primary school days. Hence I guess I should share this part of my "shameful" life...
Mischieviously, a group if kids including me went to the hall daily during recess time to play wrestling, jumping on the big mattress which was intended for sports use. To be specific, it was a mattress for you to land safely on after you jump across a bar of a certain height (forgotten the name of the sports). Then feeling thirsty, I went down to the canteen to buy yakult to drink. Without knowing, after I went back i saw my group of friends scolded by the Principal. Feeling scared, I went down and waited for their ordeal to be over. Back at class, my friend called me for an appointment with the Principal, for a rotan session and I was accused for running away. You can't possibly ask me to go back while they are having scolding isn't it? Of course, for the Alex I am now, I would. Luckily, the canning wasn't hard with a magazine tuck inside my pants. Thinking back in the perception of my Principal back then, it's just a action to scare the kids so that they will not do it again.
Feeling ashame, I did not dare to tell my parents. Till I grew older when we had one of those sharing sessions talking about life, I told my parents. It was then, I felt the shame was gone and the stone left my heart. It feels great. From then, I know being honest is the best policy. Don't tell me reality doesn't apply. If everyone are back to the basics, we're actually much less complicated.
From then, I've never lied till now. Not just only my family, it include my girlfriends and for everyone I knew. Closer ones will know more about my life, not so close knows less. Other than that, nothing was fake. I am myself, I speak for myself, I speak what I feel I should. I know the disadvantage of these is that, I may offend some people. However, to think about it for those who treat you seriously will say the truth. Only those who consider you as unworthy, will never dare to say out a single thing.
I remember there was once, I almost broke up due to a lie or rather something which my girlfriend doesn't want me to know and lied. I always believe that being the real you will make either people accept you or not. At least for what happened, I was genuine and never let you down. Hence, never let me down either.
It's amazing how people analysze situations after reading through blogs after blogs or nicks after nicks. Although people always emphasize on the phase " don't assume", they feel that they had not, but actually they had. Back at their mind, they are either suspecting, thinking and sometimes to a point they had actually start to discriminating.
Like what KJ wrote in his blog, I agree with what he said. When you don't see, don't jump to conclusion. Would you like to be accused? I guess YL should understand how I must have felt when he prompt me the other time on the issue. You don't even analysze on the situation nor think about it, you go look for evidence.
Anyway, it's easy to identify if we want to. Just think about who has the closest relation and similarity in the pen ink for that day. Otherwise, the elderly wouldn't have hinted in the admist of speech. Then, it would be obvious. Who has been the criminal/hypocrite, you analysze.
However, I ain't an old man but witness... I remember clearly...
In this case, there's only 2 conclusion I can give. A denial of deception with help of a good package cover OR a forgotten guilt. After all, time has past so long and whoever he was, he COULD have forgotten if he has done it or not. Like what the class see, it was a small matter but the elderly sees it more importantly. Hence, the latter could be a possibility. I don't blame him.
A denial of deception. How great this suits the theme of my blog all these while. At that point of time, I remember clearly what happened... I knew deep down inside... However, there was a denial of deception even if a direct question was asked.
Time flies, without knowing some of us are either 20 or turning 20. Life becomes more complicated as we grew older. It's US, ourselves who made it complicated. When we were young, we were all so pure, as we grew older, we're contaminated by the surrounding. Or should I say adults who did not show good enough examples?
I still remember days ago, I shared this part of my memory with PS. Telling her how I was accused and caned innocently during my primary school days. Hence I guess I should share this part of my "shameful" life...
Mischieviously, a group if kids including me went to the hall daily during recess time to play wrestling, jumping on the big mattress which was intended for sports use. To be specific, it was a mattress for you to land safely on after you jump across a bar of a certain height (forgotten the name of the sports). Then feeling thirsty, I went down to the canteen to buy yakult to drink. Without knowing, after I went back i saw my group of friends scolded by the Principal. Feeling scared, I went down and waited for their ordeal to be over. Back at class, my friend called me for an appointment with the Principal, for a rotan session and I was accused for running away. You can't possibly ask me to go back while they are having scolding isn't it? Of course, for the Alex I am now, I would. Luckily, the canning wasn't hard with a magazine tuck inside my pants. Thinking back in the perception of my Principal back then, it's just a action to scare the kids so that they will not do it again.
Feeling ashame, I did not dare to tell my parents. Till I grew older when we had one of those sharing sessions talking about life, I told my parents. It was then, I felt the shame was gone and the stone left my heart. It feels great. From then, I know being honest is the best policy. Don't tell me reality doesn't apply. If everyone are back to the basics, we're actually much less complicated.
From then, I've never lied till now. Not just only my family, it include my girlfriends and for everyone I knew. Closer ones will know more about my life, not so close knows less. Other than that, nothing was fake. I am myself, I speak for myself, I speak what I feel I should. I know the disadvantage of these is that, I may offend some people. However, to think about it for those who treat you seriously will say the truth. Only those who consider you as unworthy, will never dare to say out a single thing.
I remember there was once, I almost broke up due to a lie or rather something which my girlfriend doesn't want me to know and lied. I always believe that being the real you will make either people accept you or not. At least for what happened, I was genuine and never let you down. Hence, never let me down either.
It's amazing how people analysze situations after reading through blogs after blogs or nicks after nicks. Although people always emphasize on the phase " don't assume", they feel that they had not, but actually they had. Back at their mind, they are either suspecting, thinking and sometimes to a point they had actually start to discriminating.
Like what KJ wrote in his blog, I agree with what he said. When you don't see, don't jump to conclusion. Would you like to be accused? I guess YL should understand how I must have felt when he prompt me the other time on the issue. You don't even analysze on the situation nor think about it, you go look for evidence.
Anyway, it's easy to identify if we want to. Just think about who has the closest relation and similarity in the pen ink for that day. Otherwise, the elderly wouldn't have hinted in the admist of speech. Then, it would be obvious. Who has been the criminal/hypocrite, you analysze.
However, I ain't an old man but witness... I remember clearly...
In this case, there's only 2 conclusion I can give. A denial of deception with help of a good package cover OR a forgotten guilt. After all, time has past so long and whoever he was, he COULD have forgotten if he has done it or not. Like what the class see, it was a small matter but the elderly sees it more importantly. Hence, the latter could be a possibility. I don't blame him.
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