Happy Ending

“The End” of CPTC. It was indeed a memorable one. Great learning opportunities and experience we had. After all, I did not get the “Best Trainee”, sad right? LOL. But it’s ok. Derrick deserves more than I do. He was more hardworking than me. Anyway, Henry revealed during the drinking session, that I was one of the top 3 in the group who got A for this 6 weeks training after tabulation of marks! One of them is Derrick (of course), Xing Wei and Me. Supposedly there was Kelvin too, the 4 of us got high marks for practical but perhaps he didn’t do that well for his paper. Mayb he got a B+ or A- bah? Should have chiong for it lah!!! (if only I knew there was best trainee and I thought there was only overall best) Zzz… And you know what, they didn’t mark all the papers at all! They marked those papers who are eligible for Best Trainee. They would subsequently mark and tabulate the rest of others marks only later. Logically, it’s hard to mark structure questions and tabulate marks within less than 24 hrs right.

It’s ok, over is over. SIP some more only pass/fail. Zzz… Should consider part of gPA lohz… Anyway, after CPTC yesterday, we met up for dinner at Muthu’s Curry with Henry. Though not all turn up, half of the class came. It was still a big enough group after all. It was easy too, all of us were guys, except for 1 lady, S’s girlfriend who both came later. We treated Henry dinner and in amidst of settling the bills, he was really going to treat us this time with his credit card! It cost like $280+++…! In the end, we didn’t lah, it was meant to show gratitude and appreciation towards him.

After that, some left and some carried on to Boat Quay with some drinking session at Brewerkz with Henry's treat this time with 2 towers of beer; 4 litres each. It was the first time, I drank 2 full mug of Beer! 1 at Muthu’s curry, the next at Brewerkz. I don’t really like the idea of Beer… it makes me feel bloated with gases… Bah… Anyway, I still drank. We all crapped a lot the whole night. It was fun. Dearest came to join (initial intention), but cause she left house late and couldn’t get her directions right, she came and help us took photos and drove me and ‘lobang’ Yang Ping, Wang Liang and Kenneth home instead. Poor her; but thanks Honey! Kenneth was damn drunk and talked damn lots… He kept pestering Henry to ride him home. He wanted to ride on Henry’s bike but I guess Henry didn’t want to be responsible for his safety. He was “tarred” (drank 1 shot) by our pressure and Henry’s challenge..! 1st mug slow, and subsequently 3 cups were fast ones. The quote of the night was “Bo Tar, Bo Lam Pa”. Haha. This was so call my first time hanging out with such a large group of guys, and crapping. Cool.

Here are some photos:

Heh~ Cheers...

Yeah!

Anyway, the Institute of Materials Research & Engineering is at NUS. Dr. Jiang Li mentioned that it used to be a joined co-operation with NUS. There’s allowance anyway; perhaps $440 like that. Working hours are office hours, and Friday is half an hour earlier release. Tea break meals will be provided like coffee/ tea with biscuits and etc. It’s available at the pantry, so can OTOT just consume! Cool huh? She also said that 50% are China people as Singaporeans don’t really like research. Zzz. I would also need to attend a 2 and a half day of Environmental Health & Safety (EHS) training before start of SIP. There’s shuttle bus from Clementi MRT station too. However, I hope that we could take NUS shuttle bus which I often see it passing by Safara whenever I go school last time. Hopefully can save as much transport cost as possible sia! Jeremy and the other guy would be shag man. They’ll be doing their MP alone with different professors. For me, I would be working with Nicolas Pang. Hopefully, we can work well and get an A or even Z for it.

Anyway, I think my white hair will be coming out with it SIP starts. My project looks damn chim to understand. It’s so PIA and Organic Chemistry!

Here’s a brief idea from Dr. Xu in his email to Jiang Li:

The students will focus on the development of polyhedral oligomeric silsesquioxane (POSS) and polyethylene glycol (PEG) based materials. POSS has a molecule-sized silica-like cage structure (1-2 nm, depending on the length of the substituents) and can be functionalized with a variety of organic groups. PEG is completely water soluble and is extensively studies with many applications such as drug delivery, batteries and biotechnology. These 2 types of monomers (hydrophobic and hydrophilic) will be incorporated into polymers by probably ATRP method and the properties of polymers will be investigated.

I’m better in Engineering leh. Zzz… Whatever it is, I would be working hard for my MP! Moreover, this is my SIP. So basically, my 5 days = SIP = MP. No labor work and there are many advance technology being used there (this is what I heard from Dr. JiangLi). I’m seriously elated about it. Hopefully, things will turn out well as I foresee. Great thanks to Dr. Jiang Li for giving us this opportunity. I’m seriously lucky this time after missing the opportunity to go Australia due to my driving lessons booked.

God bless me.

To be or not to be. To feel happy/sad?

6 weeks. “shucks” let me quote from my previous post. Somehow, I feel attached to the people, the fun, the plant (after knowing so much then got to leave) and the routine. Tomorrow would marked “The End” of CPTC training. How should I put it? Lectures is always chatting away, eating, and playing worms on R’s mobile phone. For practical, my intention was to find ways to slack as much as possible. Somehow, that intention of mine wasn’t fulfilled totally. Somehow, somewhat there was this interest to learn after some reflection.

I would say that CPTC had bond the cohort definitely. From acquaintance to friends, we start to know one another better each day. From assumption made, I’ve learnt not to do so. I guess everyone knows about KS scolding the cohort due to some playful acts of others. People start assuming. Hypocritical; 1 shot down labeled. Recently read G’s blog and got to understand the situation. Someone blurt out casually to one of the trainer and hence, there he got his retribution. It was meant to be a joke. Perhaps they feel that the boundary was crossed.

I ain’t saying that I believe what G said in her blog. Let me clarify, there could be this possibility. I observed this time. G during shift work said “bloody hell” jokingly, yet nothing happen. Not once but several times. Our group joke about all sorts of things, we had fun and on the way we learn too. Perhaps, after all it was a misunderstanding. I felt guilty for having suspicion towards H.T character. After all, all trainers are cool. Each of them just had a different way of starting out with students. Some may look stern, but yet friendly. It was only shift work which had let me know them better. “I don’t need anyone to believe”, like what G said. Rather, we shouldn’t have fired the arrow so immediately. We had allowed anger to get over our head.

For happy part of my life, would be that I would probably be attached to NUS, Institute of Material Science & Engineering for my SIP & MP. There’s pay which I heard from KJ (he asked Dr. JL when he actually took the wrong form for his SIP), and perhaps some R&D with china professor. Another happy thing would be that I heard from H.T that me and 3 other guys are highest for practical? Sort of? Then, the final examination would decide which of us will get the Best Trainee Cert. & Testimonial. I hope what he said was the truth and not bluff me sia. LOL. Even if he was lying, I’m still happy about it lah? He sounded serious though and mentioned it in front of a few of my group mates. I guess my chances would be slim ah… If I knew it, I would have study hard for my Mid-Year paper! This EOY most of it was from practical and hence I was quite safe. Still, I lost on theory which I didn’t study! So chances are slim lorz… but still *pray pray* xD.

It’s honorable to get it loh. I remember how I receive my Best Cadet Cert. & plaque in NCC last time. And in Senior Specialist Course, I was just 2nd placing in platoon to get my Best Cadet..! That bird bird CLT was biased as he is TK’s CLT..! I ain’t lying man, this is what I knew from a Mdm CLT (now my friend). When you don’t give people a chance to perform, never call yourself a leader.

Every ending has a new beginning. I just hope what's awaiting ahead of me would lead me to the life I want it to be.

Here's a great song with great lyrics to share. I think it seriously expressed my feelings totally. Perhaps 90% of it. It's quite a old song though. I'm slow, I know. Here it is...

Artist: Blue October
Album: Foiled
Title: Into The Ocean

I'm just a normal boy
That sank when I fell overboard
My ship would leave the country
But I'd rather swim ashore
Without a life that's sadly stuck again
Wish I was much more masculine
Maybe then I could learn to swim
Like 'fourteen miles away'

You're floating up and down
I spin, colliding into sound
Like whales beneath me diving down
I'm sinking to the bottom of my
Everything that freaks me out
The lighthouse beam has just run out
I'm cold as cold as cold can be
be

I want to swim away but don't know how
Sometimes it feels just like I'm falling in the ocean
Let the waves up take me down
Let the hurricane set in motion
Let the rain of what I feel right now...come down
Let the rain come down

Where is the coastguard
I keep looking each direction
For a spotlight, give me something
I need something for protection
Maybe flotsam junk will do just fine
The jets, I'm sunk, I'm left behind
I'm treading for my life believe me
(How can I keep up this breathing)

Not knowing how to think
I scream aloud, begin to sink
My legs and arms are broken down
With envy for the solid ground
I'm reaching for the life within me
How can one man stop his ending
I thought of just your face
Relaxed, and floated into space


I want to swim away but don't know how
Sometimes it feels just like I'm falling in the ocean
Let the waves up take me down
Let the hurricane set in motion
Let the rain of what I feel right now...come down
Let the rain come down
Let the rain come down

Now waking to the sun
I calculate what I had done
Like jumping from the bow (yeah)
Just to prove I knew how (yeah)
It's midnight's late reminder of
The loss of her, the one I love
My will to quickly end it all
So thought no end my need to fall

Into the ocean, end it all
Into the ocean, end it all
Into the ocean, end it all
into the ocean...end it all

Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)

I want to swim away but don't know how
Sometimes it feels just like I'm falling in the ocean
Let the waves up take me down
Let the hurricane set in motion (yeah)
Let the rain of what I feel right now...come down
Let the rain come down
Let the rain come down

Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
(In to space)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
(I thought of just your face)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)