这是一本抽屉乏黄的日记.. 让我(们)的歌带你走过岁月..







Sunday, September 18, 2005

Think. Some people think and yet they never find a solution to their question. There are actually solutions and some reasons why.

Partly, they’ve something holding them back which they thought to be evil. This may somehow obstruct their thinking. However, you always have the choice of getting yourself back to the right path.

Another case, you’ve not been open enough or you lack the experience. The latter applies to me. Sometimes through experiences, you gain and learn values. By being liberal, you share more and learn more. Being adventurous and bravery to explore you have more experience; you dare to try out in any form of circumstances.

Some “kids” though they maybe good in studies and always want but not seek perfection in academic, they’re lack of something; character (个性). You want and you seek is different.

They, “认为还是不够,好还要更好” and they feel like shit all over. Yes, “力求上进是好的也是必要 but 如已成了要求完美; 只含意了无形中的一种承重负担” and all that’s on their mind isn’t knowledge but marks and ability to be the victor out of others. It becomes a 负担 to make sure all the stuff is in their head (memorization). In short, no actually goal or the goal’s value has been lowered.

I believe in this society that we’re currently living; can’t be like MM who leads the country to independence and later on till now. “平一个人的力量是很难能改变什么的” but with the co-operation of a group of people, something could be done. Don’t feel hopeless. No 绝望. You ain’t facing problems alone. Share it. Always bear in mind, teamwork.

Confrontation may not be a good thing. However there’s only 2 outcome; good or bad. Solve it straight and depending on situations; some friends are meant to let go. Would you want a friend who both of you doesn’t appreciate each other and you try to keep for life?

Sometimes they’re meant to be passer-by for you to learn something from them. For now, you learn and as you proceed on in life, you deal better with human-relationships. You’ll get better no doubt. Don’t keep loose ends deep in your heart, put in punctuation; full-stop. There this goes the friend who ends here in you life.

You need to face it now, the society is too harsh and competitive and you can already get examples from the current environment without moving on to the future. The kind of childhood which people use to have at our stage has gone. You can’t escape for long.

People are maturing faster. You just can’t have the好人脸 in front of all people. If you can’t protect yourself, you’ll be eaten up. Basically, we’re killing each other with motives and see who starts first. It’s a challenge.

I don’t mind getting stab once, but you’ll get it back double the price. For those who’re nice, you’ll be treated doubly nice. That’s call protect yourself and not harming others at the same time.

That’s all for the crapping. Here’s a update of myself.

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Busy. Darn busy. I’ve got myself into shit. I’m selected for Dragon Boat. I’m in DRP (Research Project), 90 hours to complete, Applied Science School Sub Committee and DB with 4 times a week of training; Tuesday, Thursday, Saturday and Sunday due to the upcoming race.

I do not know if I’m in the upcoming race, as I did not hand in my passport size photo to Captain for the registration of race. All thanks to AC. I do not know if it was a motive or a moment of forgetfulness. I hope it was the latter.

For the moment he was put into consideration. “So petty ah?” I’m just giving a “curfew”; it’ll be taken off when it’s time. My trust is just given off too easily.

Today’s training was shag at kallang, though while rowing we shout “No Shag!” to keep up the mental strength and moral. Mind over body. Teamwork was great to make the impossible, possible.

Before the set was 1000m warm up row; then, 30 minutes of non-stop rowing followed by 20 minutes. After that were 3 sets of up 40 with the seniors. Pull-ups were increased to 4 sets of 12 and with 20 push-up at each interval after each set.

When I heard my name yesterday, it was to my surprise being in the team. Coach asked me to buck up my pull-up and increase my diet. Am I so small size? I’m already bigger than Raymond and a few others. Ok, I’m trying. Don’t blame me when I’m fat. Anyway, I’m waiting for jersey and the Team Temasek jacket!!!

So touch that my honey waited for me while she was in pain (tummy & err… humph…). She’s being considerate at the improper time! She got nagged by me and her godmother. Haha. She was in tears when she got into the car. She must have felt so terrible. Poor dearest; here’s a big hug.

That’s all for the updates. Ciaoz.