time.

recently been busy with:

school.
job hunt.
interviewsss.
planning itineraries for overseas.
attending gathering sessions and catch up with various groups.

well, i had interviews such as b***** tr_der/s_les en***eer.

the sensor-ed part serve as a purpose unable people to google about such related jobs.

c*nsumer b_nking, while on hold as back up.

the rest i kinda rejected them.

i suppose it has been going quite well. some firms almost did wanna confirm me.

as for b***** tr_der, the interview was pretty straight forward.

it talks about whether a not you're up to the game of lies and everything and to entertainment of course.

as for myself, i guess it's pretty much about values VS $$$.

now i truly understand why the man once said he feels lonely/tired/sad with his wine.

betrayal of your soul, your love ones.

you drink till your liver probably fails you one day.

all in all, for the sake of providing a better life for your family.

the many things we may enjoy today, may all be taken for granted. we didn't know we had actually put life at stake, shortening life span.

but well, it solely depends on what we want in life; luxuries or a simple yet truly cohesive family, without lies.

talked to my family about it, maybe it have yet to reach the age for the job.

hence, i guess i will fall back and stay focus as s_les en***eer which offers me a good p_y package where i can afford a car, and many traveling opportunities like Jap & other regional countries. All in all, it's probably far better than those new degree graduate's pay and definitely a good start.

well, managed to clinched the 2nd interview. will know the final result in the next 2 days or so. even if i failed, at least the interview experience was definitely a good one.

till then, play well with my part time studies, probably till when studies are done, i could take the risk and afford the game (single of course) as b***** tr_der.

betrayal doesn't seem to be allowed in my dictionary if attached.

back on the serious note, if the job prospect and progression is well to do, i aimed to be a senior s_les eng-er in 3 years time or till by then when i graduate.

the time line seems just right as of now; if confirmed till after probation period and till school officially starts next year.



Have you heard?

of the 7 year itch? where things become stagnant, how you feel today no longer stays the same, the other party walk out of you at your worse times.

the faster the progression, the faster passion burns out.

the ugly truth about life; sometimes you wonder how much you kissed, how much you love each other, how much of life and yourself you shared with your partner, how much bad times and good times you went through, and today you became just total strangers.

everything seems to boil down to ZERO value.

sometimes, people need to be tested through time with all the nonsense be it rationale or irrational:

be it your ugliest times
be it the times you are broke like shit
be it when you were angry and go bonkers
be it the times you're so sick and vomit
be it the times you're bedridden and can't even clean your own mess

is there any fairytale in here?

it's the reality of every aspect, in life.

i would once again, for the one i love.

but i guess i've enveloped myself, no longer feeling anything for anyone.

p.s. why waste time getting into r/s when all that ever happens has no forever? but only tearful memories for you to reminisce from time to time?



TURN OFF

it's pretty turn off to have people who text you like they know you damn fcuking well/ putting a judgmental comment on your character/perception SOOO soon when they hardly understand your past/experience.

don't love/like/interested in me soooo soon, i don't believe in that.

please, be my best friend at least before you try again.

-.-

today just seems so bluey, and i just don't know why.

pms always seems to come around when the month is coming to an end?

and seems like most of my post are always on the 28th.

people always seems to be reading more of my blog when it's near 28th as well.

btw, you don't really have to catch up with friends only when your 'current' isn't around in SG.

i do not really *like* the idea of them being make use of, to fill your void as much as i understand that we do have mutual friends.


your profile seems by far, consist the most amount of bedroom pictures.

please, save some pride and privacy for yourself.

there's USB and other means of file transfer technology than being really hardworking to upload them.

at least love and take care of your, name.