这是一本抽屉乏黄的日记.. 让我(们)的歌带你走过岁月..







Tuesday, July 19, 2005

It has been long ever since I started blogging. And surprisingly, you can see my last entry was last year. Time flies. I’ll not talk about what has happen over the few months. LOR SO le. Anyway, feeling quite sucky today. MEB, 23.5/50. Scored highest among the failures? Cool?

Lecturer: er.. Where is JY?
ME: Here.
Lecturer: This is your quiz paper.
(YES! A liao! 16/20! I'm draw with PS.)
Lecturer: But er.. what happen to your term test huh..
(Shit, failed. Deep down my heart, OMG!)
Lecturer: Maybe you blank or something during the exams huh.. You may want to share with me after lessons..
(Silence in ME)
Lecturer: I can see you're trying hard and you're a good student..
(Of course la)
Class: Eh..

For a moment my heart sank. However I expected it. While doing the test, I didn't know what I was really doing. Miss hands are moving, Mr Brain is not. Demoralising. I kept very quiet for lunch. My friends are like, "OK not? You're not yourself le and blah blah". Of course I'm not OK and I'm not myself! By asking, it just makes the person feel worse. He needs to be alone and sort out his thoughts. Many took up psychology as their CDS. Yet, they never tried to learn before taking up.

On the surface, by asking is showing concern. However, many do not understand one thing. How do you feel if you're in that person's shoes and you're prompt? Anyway, thanks. No offence. I understand it's always meant to be a consoling session right after something bad happen.

EM got 40/50. In fact it was 39.5. Find and begged for 0.5 marks. Kiasu right? It can't be help. TD04 is too competitive.

On the surface, we're united, we share, we coach each other. Call for study group? "Don't want la.. Ma Fan la.. I think many want to study ourselves.. blah blah.." We're top or whatever so what? Hello, there're the helpless people in your class! One of them haven't been getting good results. Anyone notice it? (Not ME) NO.

What are all these for? A play from Monday to Friday for the lecturers? To praise TD04 is a good class?

Seriously, this class is not working at all! Who's there to bond the class? It'll be tiring if no one participates! Definitely NO FUN and don't say MA FAN.

Pissed by the class meeting.

Selfish, Hypocritical, Arrogant, Self-centred, Lazy, No Enthusiasm.

Psychology? Put others before yourself. If not you'll never know and understand the real reason behind. Feel it.

We're not moving. We'll split. I guess no one cares. Nobody listens.