I don't know why. There was once when someone told me she'll cherish me. I felt so ignored by the treatment and attitude. I hate it. I hate the insecurities. Why must things be told then it'll be done? I suppose many things come by so naturally? Comparing to the past it's so different! Let's see what happens when I am not going to do anything about it anymore! Go, stray! Damn! No liars this time.

Having sleepy eyes, yet waiting for her SMS. Today’s DB training somehow seems shag. However it’s not surprising. I skipped last week’s run. 2 weeks never run, 1.6 KM can’t even speed up. Timing was 8 minutes plus. Luckily, it’s not 4 KM. It is sure to kill me. Don’t know why but I lost the kick of running. Didn’t like running that much now. I guess there’s obstruction, that I am worried about; my appendicitis. I’m so afraid to be hospitalized again. I should have it cut the other time.

Today, presented the ladies idea for CCN during APEL. Hope that Mr Teong didn’t get very mad. None of them came up with any reports. While presenting and writing, I felt as if I was back in NCC. Satisfied.

Still wondering, how will my OC result be? Quite worried about it.

Ok. So I promised to mention her name. Who’s the HER I’ve been talking about? Diana Chew WJ. Think she’ll have her butts in her air after reading this entry. Yup, she’s my love. That’s all. Nothing to hide.

I really do hope to be treasured and appreciated. By having said that, sometimes a simple SMS in between your lessons will make the day. Sometimes for a reason, I wonder why.

I miss the past. The days we spent. Maybe people grow up, relationship changes over time. Maybe knowing each other later may do you good in certain aspects. Perfect. I enjoy listening to Simple Plan. I could get the lyrics very clearly. Meaningful.

Lately, I haven't been enjoying my sleep at night. It's so difficult to get to sleep. I hope I can make it tonight. Insomnia. Aiks.