这是一本抽屉乏黄的日记.. 让我(们)的歌带你走过岁月..







Sunday, September 26, 2010

shit stirrer.

for this post, i am not agitated.

i'm as rationale and as calm as i am.

but let me name you "asshole".

for some reason, this fake profile of U is created.

if you're so fucking free to stalk on others life and creating this fake account and label me as "andrew", extracting all sorts of old photos of the past. then, i think you're really fucking free.

for the photos you've extracted, it's not in any of my album.

you're a close suspect of the clique with the ladies you know, hence it doesn't really bother me.

you are definitely out of my friends list, and you do not really know who our mutual friends were.

you're someone close to her, and even remember/know quotes she used long before.

you probably have a psychotic split personality which probably have some kind of grudges inside you, with either of us.

your motive:
- to stir hatred or a more in depth misunderstanding between people
- to make others hate me (to make others think i am the fucking free man to do sucha stuff)
- instilling hatred in the ones and family members who were once dear and close to my heart

you're just trying to make things ugly, and wish to laugh and watch whatever that may happen.

whoever you are, you're simply too free.

please go and do something better at your free time, and fuck off.

you've been shortlisted by me, and i probably know who you are.

too free? carry on.

i can't be bothered by your request.

your plan to make me feel what you want me to feel, has failed terribly.

i've stopped feeling anything.

just too bad. haha.

Monday, September 20, 2010

走进走出

suddenly i've got this very positive feeling towards what's gonna be ahead in life.

we're all in our prime years, so it's critical to add value to yourself, and keep exploring more into the meaning of life and the world.

freedom is the key to success.

god has his plans for your fate. he will bring the best to you - someday.

well, i still believe a real r/s is when you've found your opposite gender best friend (he/she will see the best of you and the ugliest of you), all your past with somebody is revealed/shared through time with him/her through endless talks and then accepted.

a very honest and true r/s.

i guess, that will make you and the r/s very much valuable.

the perception of people moving on from one r/s to another (psychologically - they explained that people who are love dependent/ afraid of loneliness, would do so to forget all that is in the past/ to fulfill what they want as of tentative) has gradually lose the real meaning of r/s with people.

it'll somehow end, someday again.

the real time line to forget or have a vague memories of the past/people will take about 2-3 years exactly for all wounds to be healed.

they actually care; they run, they always run away from life, forgetting to really overcome their feelings/ emotions by themselves and face who they really are.

"if the world turns bad, even if the world can be the ugliest. you must not be one of them, carry on and be good, be who you really are."

i was inspired by my doctor who told me this.

time's not up, still too early.

what comes around, goes around.

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

眼泪

你是否还记得..

在走过的岁月里,

有多少眼泪是 一起流?



你.. 记起了吗..?

这些感动是爱情里的甜酸苦辣.



最纯真的感动..

Monday, September 13, 2010

leave.

they always say, if you left something

don't try to bring anything along

it's not gonna be the same.

and i was taught/told not to touch anything that you considered yours, nothing mutual as you may regard.

so, don't do what you preached.

you formed a new life, leave what's behind - behind.



you made the decision, the choice for your fate - your destination.

that's what everyone does, don't you see?

they don't try mingling, nor duplicate actions/words of the past.



"i never like to use sweet words to make you happy, if it's not from my heart. i'll probably say things to make you lose faith and feel disappointed. so, were you up for the test of time, and how much you remember about love?

i always believe (myself) in whatever i choose to commit my time/effort in. only time, will my actions speaks for itself, making you happy - a life time." - soulmate

Sunday, September 12, 2010

感情vs爱情

有人说不管时间过了多久

没了爱情... 感情总还是有吧?


人.. 真的会怀念感情吗?


你是否还记得.. 一段感情/爱情纯真的美好?

ha.. 真可笑...

回忆.. 总是在脑海里..

清晰.. 可见...


but well.. I guess this article (extract) which I came across, explains why.

"If a person has an experience that is physically, mentally or emotionally traumatic, the mind deals with the situation in one of several different ways. Some people abuse alcohol, food, drugs or other substances to numb the feelings they have inside. Others mourn for a short period of time, restore their faith, balance and sanity, and somehow miraculously move on.

But the rest of us left over, usually those who are very analytical and logical, have trouble processing deeply troubling situations. So, we replay the painful situation over and over again in our minds, searching for an answer. But the problem is, the answer cannot be found in the rational mind, because the problem is on an emotional plain. Therefore, the solution has to come from the heart, which needs to be healed and restored."

how you wish sometimes you could be less logical and analytical.


"we live in a world of lies & many hidden truth; what was real became surreal, what's dream became a fantasy. Humans forgo guilt/conscience/kinships/friendships which we learn since young & over the years, to move on. At the start, it's always "He/She/I'm so glad/ thank god to have met you..!" The end states, "no one is worth that sympathy nor apology". Much less, the basic respect for the relationships built."