Kuku Bird Day

Today is my birthday. I call it “kuku bird day” for the first time. I think this is the saddest birthday I ever had. It’s all spent at CPTC, isn’t it kuku? Anyway, thanks to my classmates, friends for the little surprise they gave for me. Though things were rush, but it couldn’t be help. So… how was it spent? After CPTC training, Dearest came to pick me up. I suppose she would be eating late dinner with me, but she has eaten. Again, we went to Bedok 18 and eat my fishball meepok. It’s 1st time spending my day at coffee shop though. Whatever it is, it doesn’t matter; it’s always the person you spend with. Anyway, tomorrow would also be my day! It’s my Chinese birthday. In Chinese, I’m 20 years old. Woot. Within a day, I’m 19… and 20 the next. Haha…

Thanks for the wishes. I appreciate that. I was shock that other course mates also wished me. Thanks thanks. I think I’m darn DAO lah? I guess always people have been waiting for me to say perhaps hi/signal to greet, but I always don’t. Rather, I smile. If they’ve seen it, I’ve greeted. To me is smile; to them, I don’t know if they think that is so? I just feel so PS later when perhaps or what if that person acted like doesn’t know you? But but… I think I’ve made several people PS several times too.

19 years of my life… Hmmm… How great? I treasure the time spend with anyone I suppose; especially my love ones? Every obstacle that comes by doesn’t pull me down… Even if so… I wouldn’t allow the Earth to continue spinning w/o me moving. Once fall, rub yourself for a moment and move on further! “Life isn’t hard… Sometimes it’s just ain’t so fair…” quoted from KT. I’ve been keeping all these thoughts on mind… Life would be better ahead…

Aiks… What are friends and what are brothers? Some brothers might no longer be my brothers over time… Some friends have perhaps forgotten me… These are only friends I’ve left… So… they would just be passer-bys in life? I hope not. I do treasure and that don’t treat me for granted.

Dearest is still the one, always by my side… 4 years… I do cherish you all right? All the obstacles that we’ve came by, they ain’t easy. Lots of love…

So much random/sad/lame thoughts on the birth of my day…

Yup. It’s weekend again. Here I am after reading R’s blog… So guilty again… Luckily I did a close observation after Suhua knows the secret and gave a serious response. Subsequently was some discuss made with Liang. There comes the Man w/o Faith in R’s blog…

Faith is a trust. Something, someone, virtually or realistically we can give to. Sadly R is single; then he doesn’t have any GF to turn to lah. But I guess he will find his Mrs. Right one day. Right Rubin? Your.. Humph.. who u tried to sabotage me… Zzz… I remember times when Me and currently Charsiew Pig (Dearest got sun burnt), had to sort out these differences in religion. She (was) a Christian baptized, and I was just a kid who’s not really either Buddhist or Taoist (caught in between the 2) and due to confusions, the word free-thinker comes in. Then, I’m caught in between these 3 species. Thereafter, I tried/ still trying to understand Christianity and why certain people are sooo... pray daily? every meal? and once they feel depressed/sad etc. Then, I question myself; why don’t I do that?

For me, i always believe that obstacles are meant to be met and meant to be ourcome by ourselves. This is then, we're stronger. When i find my life is tough; walking/cycling through rains/ scorching sun on my way home soaked in rain/sweat and with heavy stuff to lobang. Why I say it's tough? I look upon those kids in their parents car, fetching them. They don't need to experience all these... Yet... I have to... My family isn't that rich but I've never look down on it, rather I'm proud to have such a loving family. I ain't consoling myself. It's because everyone is willing to play a part. My dad don't own a car. Yet, we can always walk together in family of 5. Simple walk; from downtown east to my house, from orchard all the way to Plaza Singapura through all shapping malls and later take MRT up again to Novena just to find a pair of shoe I want. Yet, the 4 family members didn't complain a single thing. How many Dads/ Mums will do that? I always tell myself that god is fair and that my future will be better. It's either you get these or these.

All right. Every religion does pray everyday. A monk recite sutras daily, a priest/pastors etc all do. But the word believers/followers come in. Different people, different individual have a different degree of faith towards their god. That was the conclusion. Perhaps I wasn’t a full-time follower and hence I ain’t doing these. I do believe that every religion has its truth. Tell you frankly, I pray to all. I believe that god(s) can understand and that they wouldn’t have qualms/ quarrels within themselves? They are god so I guess nobility is their forte. The world is just too complicated as each individuals have different characteristics. To make a total sense of religions and link them up is a mission impossible.

Anyway, they are just some thoughts. Back to do some work… What an abrupt Ending to my entry...

Life is as boring and tired as usual. Today was Dad’s birthday. I simply just got home and had my later dinner and as what we always do, a simple cake blow and that is birthday to my family. No prezzie or anything. Mine is next week, like 6 more days? I would be 19 then.

Time flies. I remember few months back I was celebrating X’mas, Darling’s birthday, CNY, Post-exams… Then… BOOM! 19? No please? I prefer the number 18? Very soon, I’ll be entering army. J just went in recently. Hope that he’s doing fine? Time fly faster and faster as you grow older w/o knowing. I remember when I was young; when I still know nuts about calendars, I always feel that 1 year is faster, and then the next year would be slower. But I guess that’s not the case now. Moreover, Wednesday would be my Mid-Term test at CPTC too. Zzz. Shagged man. Still blur here and there sometimes. Hope I could do reasonably well? I hope…

Continuing from what I’ve learnt in practical the 2 days…

Wednesday, 18 April 2007

We started the compressor in the plant air to start the pigging system. I simply hated that house. So humid. Steps for commissioning and decommissioning of compressor are complicated. However, commissioning of compressor is essential for various operation of the plant. After we have tried to decommission the compressor, we tried commissioning the compressor. There were some problems we face. Example, the no. 2 compressor kicks in due to ES100 (Electronikon) being offline. Then, our instructor; Mr Henry turned it on and allow the controller to take over and re-integrate no.2 (slave). Here, I hope that the meaning of integrate from which I understood was; example, when PV of no.1 (master) falls below the set-point, no.2 which is integrated into the system, kicks in automatically to aid the system to meet the set-point.

After the compressor has been started, we moved on to the pigging system. The purpose of this system is to clean or for internal inspection of pipeline. It was interesting to launch the pigging system. However, in the amidst of fun, the PIG was perhaps not place properly or insufficient pressure which resulted in the Solid Cast PIG stuck in between a bigger and smaller pipeline. It was initially a little slanted and I guess with many people trying to pull and adjust, it got to a more proper position. Then, suggestion of increasing the system pressure was made to troubleshoot this situation. Luckily it wasn’t objected by our trainer as he gave the opportunity to try when it’s possible (otherwise, dismantling of pipe would be needed).

Thursday, 19 April 2007.

It was on the operation of flare. The practical had enhanced what had been gone through in lecture. Most of the safeguarding system has been mentioned in lecture. However, today at the DCS, another safeguarding system was emphasized by one of the trainer; 10-UZ900. It was also one of the safeguarding systems. Assay in a case of flashback, overpressure of pipeline on the other side (leading to flare), 10-UZ900 could prevent the nitrogen tank from contamination through controlling of valve 10-UZ901. The purpose of resetting UZ900 was also to… ask ask Henry again… still got thermosiphon effect to blog about… to be continue…

Sianzation… Can you feel it? It’s hard to get back on track with lectures and study of Chemical Engineering. Lucky this time is 3.1 with training @ CPTC, SIP and MP. Imagine it’s going to be books and projects again! I think I will just die… Recently too, my life became so happening! I do not wish to talk about it as this entry of mine isn’t for that. Read R’s blog will do.

Anyway, I need to blog to keep track my reflection “What I’ve learnt this week for Practicals only”.

Monday, my groups had climbed C-100 and C-101. C-100 is estimated to be about 10 storey (35m) high. It was anxiety and excitement experienced. Luckily enough, my ankle was sort of not so pain, I’ve been anticipating about climbing the tower since the first day we had practical. This activity was like a treasure hunt where we have to hunt for and identify the tags on the temperature and pressure gauges, sampling point and etc.

Through this activity, it has allowed me to have a clearer view of the distillation column and its operations. Thereafter, it was easy for me to draw my PFD diagram too. Though for the past 1 week, we had been doing line tracing in different part of the plant, I feel that it was essential for us to know the operations better.

Tuesday, it was Cooling Water system, Deluge Valve and N2 system. Through the practical, my trainer has taught us to change Float system to Bubbler System and vice versa. It was complicated again. There were many valves and different parts we’ve to monitor and turn. Hence, when debriefing was done, I could have a clearer picture of each procedure and it purposes.

Example, we have to ensure that the Cooling Water System is on before the start up of plant, follow by instrument Air. The purpose of having a float and bubbler system is simple. Basically, float system is always use in CPTC for power saving as it does not activate and make use of the compressor. However, the disadvantage is that it needs frequent patrolling so as to ensure that there is no overflow in the basin. Where else, bubbler system needs the activation of the compressor and hence, a swing by-pass is needed for instrument air to activate the compressor and the bubbler level transmitter to be send to controller. This process of system change would almost be completed by changing 10-PCV-502 to automation and later throttled the side valve to 3.04barg to meet set-point controlled in the DCS unit.

For deluged system, there are 3 ways to activate it. Basically, burn it, activate the emergency button located in the plant and activating it from the DCS. For N2 system, I’ve also learn the operations.

Alright. Enough. To be continue… just don’t wish to forget some facts learnt…

So again, I went to MOS yesterday. This time, with Dearest and her friend ST, R and S. The 5 of us. Weird combination initally though, however we had quite some fun bouncing! LOL. So, S drunk and was high. Thanks for trusting me again. It was suppose to get you loosen up, destress. Allah, it's my fault.

Wahaha. So, R was abit stiff till he gets into the mood? LOL. S was crazily strumming his air-guitar and drumming his air-drums. We were on steps, so perhaps he had felt that he was having his very own ROCK concert? LOL. But I'm glad that he gave it all out? Loosen up and let it out? Even dearest said so too. Initially, ST was saying that I was bad. LOL But, whatever it is, I know what I should do and should not. I'm not making him drunk nor intend to do so. Just get loosen up, bounce, dance, party and... Feel the BEAT! He was seriouly crazy doing all his acts lah? Which I think many of our class people will never get to see what he did. Every strums and drums he made was with the beat you see. Especially the strumming part, he was cool with it man. I think he should go learn rock guitar or something.

I feel.. every pound coming out from the speaker... Enjoying every single beat of it. Giving myself all out!

I guess all of us enjoyed. I felt bad for leaving ST to go home alone? She was great? But perhaps kinda sian sian also? Maybe cause she didn't drink much and that's why. Still, she listened to her BF I guess. After that, we took a cab and thong at *. Ruben was cool; he did not go home at all and Dearest and I sent him to school for his DRP. Woot.

After that, I went home and had a long sleep again. Perhaps for more on what we did, you can visit R's blog @ http://www.blog.platodino.com/. Something interesting also happened. About $ part. Perhaps R will blog that. I'm lazy to do so. Zzz.

And so... Dearest is going there next week with her class again. Hope she listens to me too! Hope to go else where the next time. St James or Zouk perhaps. If a big group go would be even better? I see group of peeps occupying the so called "small stage" and bouncing crazily!

I'll be bouncing at CPTC next week onwards. Zzz. Shucks.

Things changed and everything changes. The feeling of this so called “buddy” also becomes different. I knew the verdict though I told PS 80% chance. But still there might be a chance for time to reveal certain things? Perhaps.

Trust is lost in friendship and hence it goes over to love. Perception to change; but there is a need for reasons to do so. Then, it’ll all be deceptions.

Here I am; a director watching and directing this movie. However, I failed to see my own ending and left it in suspense. Whatever it was, it was the friendship. The lady has nothing to do with me. I never regret what I did. I would have still done the same things.

What a careful use of my tenses here. I sort of feel an ache in my heart.

All the best dude.

For past moments, I’ve seen how complicated things are. Perhaps not for the situations, but the characters. I feared that things might turn sour between love and between friendship/ brother-hood.

As expected...

The word betrayal will come in, sooner or later. Papers can’t wrap up fire. I knew you couldn’t take it. I’m too frank? I don’t want to lie nor hide from you. There are reasons and situations which lead to these. I’m cool with it if you mentioned “trusted”; once and never again. I was mentally prepared for these to know more, to advise you better?

Don’t numb yourself with panadols. No one can save you but yourself. No point thinking. Perhaps conclusion is here to come. I did all I could.

I felt your hatred, confusion, saddness, pain and hurt, betrayed. I believe this friendships of ours will be stronger.

I’m out of the picture now waiting for verdict.

And now, dearest is PMS-sing. zzZ.