truth & lies/ expectations vs habits.

somehow these few days, few or rather 2 women happen to "su ku" to me.

C was telling me over the phone how selfish she probably feel her boy is, probably to a point where the man say, he couldn't breathe. yet, she ain't restricting him from doing anything. i pondered about mine then...

"he didn't understand what love is", it's about compromising & accomodating.

so i thought about dates which i had, which probably mid-way... snapped and we got to leave the restaurant for some other purposes.

so she talks about her little family issues and linking to why can't the man understand.

man are no doubt childish to a certain extend in r/s. it's dependent on what ways and how. some may feel comfortable, doing a little childish things to probably make the r/s fun and doing this in inappropriate times probably irritates the women. some men can be childish as bringing up petty issues and quarrels.

let's not be sexist and take what a man should do or what a women should do. because, whatever that's done should be coming naturally from the heart. no expectations. we're all humans ain't we?

we have mood swings and that's what a r/s is for, to be there for one another. have you ever feel when you're single and when you have a mood swing, all that you could probably be moody towards to, is just yourself?

had a chat with a NSmen who's 27. heard stories about his life. so talking about his r/s... he was dumped and patched when he was serving his NS. no doubt was the lady who cheated though. he loses faith in r/s, thereafter going one after another. currently he has one for 3 years.

out of curiosity, i ask... have you ever been honest about your past?

he said, "no".

for the past 3 years, there wasn't any honesty. yet he said he regretted going on with so many flings just for the feeling of company. and he told me, sometimes your maturity comes later. and sometimes after sometime in life, then you start to regret some of the decisions you actually made.

i realized, sometimes i think too far. yet, probably some people don't.

sometimes i wonder, in your life, you're faced with putting on a mask daily. yet, when supposedly love is what you think about is innocent, you're actually blinded by the lies that lie behind.

so from the conversation, i made an observation in comparison to mine, or rather perhaps it's an common case...

your girl just finished her lessons, she expects you to pick her up.

he said he was tired, so he didn't say he was tired. he said that he's not free and needs to work overtime.

so we did conclude, if we were to say i'm tired... she'll take it as you're lazy to pick her up etc etc etc. at that moment, we just couldn't give that little love and understanding.

sometimes, expectations becomes a habit. and till the day when you gotta really lose that habit, your expectations became your desperation of wanting that habit back.

when we were all young and innocent, we know what we want. yet, as we grew older we forgot what we want.

sometimes, we do not have time to lose. we'll never know what's gonna happen the very next day if we never know how to cherish the one we love.

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anyway, i was informed by C that L had shown mindef lady on the episode i filmed. the comment given was, i was really good looking. =.=

i wonder if it's aunty who said that, because it's usually the aunties who comment about me.

i think the video gonna be up soon? till then, i guess i'll be expecting many critizism...