当我们同在一起

会不会有人抱着你对你说
你一定行, 你一定做的到

她不知道
未来和你的路
会有多远
当她对你说
她的眼神
只带着爱

有人说爱是冒险
我们都不知道
未来会带给我们什么
但一路上有你
路不管有多远
都不程觉的寂寞

对未来的展望也更有信心

如果爱一个人就别想太多

只有珍惜现在才能够展望未来

they say life's an irony

when we're in our comfort zone

we wanna risk ourselves to see what change would bring us

we often say we want to look for what we want in life

yet what we're looking for, may not even exist

yet, sometimes we want to feel comfortable.

somewhere where you can snuggle in.

LIFE.

busy morning.

busy morning planning forecast
shooting emails
receving shots
handled SOB (shortness of breath) case
handled exhuastion (chao keng) case

today i learned to be the a.k.a cool, calm and steady.

supposedly i thought physical exhaustion should be a serious case

so i'm surprise that my reaction was super calm.

i do not know why, but probably i just had my annual medic proficiency test?

or i didn't miss the intravenous yesterday when 2 of my man missed and didn't manage to topo the veins despite the no. of tries? which in turn built up the confidence in me?

when everyone gets panicky,

"take details"
"take parameters"
"doctor standby"
"register"
"standby ambulance"


rubbish. ended up the vitals were quite norm. suspected chao keng. sorry, i feed you biggest needle then.

"fuck, fuck you all"

wow. physical exhausted patient can shout; level of consciousness is high. my man was topo-ing, and i just told them to continue. he might have felt disgusted by the needle under his skin, my man might have feared his shouts and disrupted their focus in looking out for his veins, i maybe a saddist looking. so?

"SGT, cannot. must take out needle."
"nope, try."

actually not very saddist, i just didn't want to poke another big needle into him.

so end up, i've to do it.

"done, please dislodge."

yet, dislodging failed and my vein was missed.

so they poke another.

today, i felt i'm immune.

immune to feelings of others.

and i don't feel as panicky as others, much less a planning of forecast.

if shooting emails and receiving shots seems to be a norm.

fighting politcal wars seems to be a norm as well.

somehow, i'm getting the hang of it, and handling it well.

i feel i've gained respect from my colleagues over time.

perhaps i know what i'm doing and where i'm moving.

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sometimes i feel being an all rounder ain't easy.

sometimes i feel average, sometimes i feel i'm only better in some areas. sometimes i feel i know more in many areas compared to others.

yet, somehow there's nothing i seem to be excellent in.

not just better.

so am i consider average as a average joe?

i play sports, i do shopping & appreciates fashion, i love all sorts of food, i know how to enjoy life yet not forgetting to work hard, i love watching and appreciating dramas/arts/movie/shows/exhibits, i've interest in medical knowledge/health sciences ever since i became a medic specialist, i learn how to train my body despite not being a PTI, i sing kara, i've interest in finance & investments, business, i love to observe and study relationships/characters and behaviors of others, and think alot, i play games but not a good gamer, i love sciences and researching work as it makes me feel more as a rational being, it makes me analytical, i can cook, i know how to go marketing for groceries, i know how to do all sorts of housework.

as a guy, i probably don't play soccer and don't watch soccer, unless world cup.

and of course 1 more which i'm learning.

i've probably covered most aspect.

i've yet to know of any guy friend who do whatever i probably do.

otherwise he would have been my best best buddy then.

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不明了, 不了解

不知为什么突然很有感觉
不了解这是否是欺骗还是逃避

时间过了太久
你都选择了遗忘

别告诉我你曾经所拥有的
我和你之间是我们的故事

难道一份过了真实风雨的感情
就能够让时间带走一切

想了想走过的路
真的很多

今天我的心
灰了
你不明了

选择了遗忘
过去对你的好
让我觉的不如一切

回忆不时浮现在我眼前
你对我的好
我都记得

有人说没做完的梦最痛

你呢？

对不起

但是我不会就这样被他打倒

my sense of direction is always clearer.

i may detour, but i'll never miss my destination.

i always know my path, my roads.

i know my directions, my principles.

my values, my faith, my beliefs.