Deceptions of mind.

it has been the 6th day without you, and my life just seems to quieten down by alot.. it has also been a long time since I've last blogged. probably there isn't any platform for me to express my thoughts for now.. neither do i wish to affect you in anyway. time seems to pass very slowly, every moment, my mind is all abt you..

i guess at the end of the day, failure lies with the things we've done unknowingly. subconsciously, we've done things which we shouldn't. subconsciously, we assumed and ideas weren't communicated properly overtime. subconsciously, subconsciously... we formed certain perception. And clearly and not subconsciously, i know deep down, the love is still there. It can't be lost completely.. probably the love was forgotten..

there i was, at the wooden chair we sat before.. i turned back, it was the same tree we once took our photos with.. as i stood at the huge rock, looking out at the sea, turning back again, it was the very same coconut where you and i took photos with.. then i realised.. we did miss something unknowingly..

as i cycled through the many paths we took, i remember those times spent. They were our very sweet moments despite the number of years we had been together. And it's probably i've been really busy that we've lost touch of spending quality time..

it has been really a long time and we finally came thus far. I miss those times spent with you, the food we shared (those meals.. don't we..?), and the many things we see as one. Those times where we experience one another's sorrows, and happiness of life was simply unforgettable. We truly feel that for each other.. As u ever gave me one thing, “nothing was more beautiful than the love that has weathered through the storms of life..”

at the end of the day, i still respect whatever you said you've decided. I know what you need, a total freedom. I love you, and so i'm letting you go.. And i know it would probably be good as well.. neither do i wish the story to end the day before marriage.. and so I've got this hope and faith – if we're ever back again, i know the feelings would be back to what it originally was, totally different experience and that we would treasure one another more.. and it would probably be another even longer chapter..

I've faced this very well and surely i'm coping as well as you are. hope to see you soon..