这是一本抽屉乏黄的日记.. 让我(们)的歌带你走过岁月..







Tuesday, August 02, 2005

Ok. So I have my archive done up. People who are interested can view my “past deception”.

Woke up early morning; feeling lethargic. Had a midnight “influenza”. Blocked nose and running nose; spoiled my sleep. However, I got quite well again in the late afternoon. Weird. That’s the reason why I skipped DB today. I have to, I’ve got a feeling I’m falling sick soon.

Ok. MEB pop quiz, I’m going to fail I guess. I crapped my way through. i’m feeling so dead towards MEB. Early morning’s PIPC too. I don’t know what I did la. Just whack. I was so relax man. I like it. However, let’s test and see what’s the outcome yea? I learned to relax. Kinda.

However, I still ate ice-cream on the way home. Haha. Hazelnut Ice-cream. Cool.

Ok, found out PS’s blog today. Didn’t know she blog. “Ren Bu Ke Mao Xiang”. Ok, interesting I would say. Yup, expected: she thinks a lot too.

Think think think. Why do people think. Thoughts. Our thoughts. Why sometimes people go to an extend of thinking more? That’s one question I’ve been asking myself. W-H-Y. Why. Someone, post your comments.

Building up on PS’s blog; every individual is a droplet of rain/water/blah. As we move along in our life, we met different people, as we move on further, we met new people. On the way, people left the world, leaving you. Can you imagine that kind of feeling?

Let’s say we’re living till 75 years old. Going by priorities; relatives. Feel alright, maybe a little sad? Grandparents, aunties and uncles… Sadder? Next, parents. How much will you be crying? I’m crying and being sad for my grandmother’s death. As you age, it maybe your siblings. OMG. Then, maybe it’s your turn? Wife? You know what I’ll chose? I’ll leave last then.

Look, in your life there’s so many heart wrenching things you’ll be going through. I guess most of us have this thought when we were young; I want to hurry grow up! However for now, I do not appreciate it at all. People who once loved you, left. You’re lack of another voice of concern. How uneasy can that be? Death is a “Jie Tuo”.

Naturally, don’t be stupid and think of committing suicide so early. Setbacks are just part and parcel of life. Enjoy what you can that is provided here. Just think; nice buffet and delicious food, beautiful scenery which have yet to see!

After school, back at home I was chatting with my mother. Halfway through, she said, “that time your grandmother thought that Diana is coming to eat you know, and she specially open the dinning table in the living room, she was anxious.” “I told her next time. But, she really doesn’t have the fate to do so.”

These 2 sentences irk me. I felt my heart being pierced. Sucks! I badly want her back. But, can I? I just hope god would just give us a warning before she left. At least, we could do all the very last things.

Moral of the story, treasure the people around you.

Many things in our life, is not as important compared to family. It should be the first. For those who are Christians, religion first. However, what’s the credibility of every single thing produced out of religion? I am neutral and not biased. I believe every religion has their truth. People just misunderstand it and carry on passing it down. Career-minded ones, how much money can you earn? Bookworms, how much books can you ever finish?

What is our aim by doing all these and neglecting our family members? It’s only once in a life time. God gives you, treasure it. Not him. He’ll be there as long as you have him in the heart. Misused and misunderstand.

Thus, I would want to say; I love my family and every single one of them. I love you too, dearest.