记得

while sorting out files,

正好当我感觉心灰意冷时, 我的信念再次勇敢的坚持了下来.

眼泪也不知不觉的流了下来

memories too much isn't it? from new year, chinese new year, x'mas, v'day, birthdays, graduations, outings, dates, funerals, performances, hospital trips, overseas trips, every single part of good and bad times of life... are they suppose to be named "thick & thin"?



过去你哭红了眼眶, 告诉我, 你受了伤.

从此, 我第一次想好好珍惜一个人, 第一次想为了她; 让自己变的更好, 因为我相信这世界还没有太烂, 我可以陪着她一起努力, 不让任何人再伤害她.

因为她受伤太久了.

荣华富贵, 我或许没有.

但简单的幸福与真心是我能够给的

也是我曾给你的承诺.

想陪你一起努力

你会愿意吗?

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当你累的时候, 会想起了谁?

当你入睡前, 你又会想起了谁?

不说是因为害怕, 而心里的最深处, 会是那心跳, 对你说: "..好想.. 好想..".

好想的是那份依赖...

那熟悉的双手替你按摩
那熟悉的脸孔可发牢骚
那熟悉的味道在你身边

抱着你睡着...

如今的你在害怕的是什么?

能不能别想太多.

我可以, 陪着你走.

finally done with the audit, ending it with rectification follow up.

moreover, i had to entertain the auditors rather than my officer who should appear.

nevertheless, deduction of 15 points from the final results.

i guess i've done my best for the medical centre compared to the previous batch which i heard they got deducted over 30 plus closing 40.

it's not easy coordinating all the various departments in details especially as a NSP, noob towards audit for a medical centre.

i just kept running through to push each department to make sure they've done their part.

still, loop holes and the very minor stuff are inevitable.

however, i feel satisfied. because it's not suppose to be my job handling audit, yet i'm doing so.

it's like a regular job. being an acting senior medic aka IC for this organisation and unit isn't that simple with limited manpower. yet, paper workload is the same as how other medical centre runs.

good experience though. at least i know what are the gritty gritty details they look out for when it comes to audit, and how the system links and telly with the paper work.

with some last minute impromptu, some sense, some logic, some help from my man, some talking (aka flirting power with the auditor, which i can't imagine myself doing it for the sake of MARKS), i manage to smoke and squeeze some more points for my medical centre.

and i can't imagine myself being flirted back. the thought of it, is just.. =S

hah, you think i like it? feels like selling my body/looks or something. =.=

whatever it is, it's over. hopefully, they can score a silver, where the previous years they only got bronze or pass.

it's just like how i pushed my secondary school back in NCC days for Gold Unit. but back then, i conducted more trainings and more hardwork than using my brains & mouth. but perhaps that was a different working environment.

as time goes by, i feel more appreciated, more respect, more bonding, more trust and confidence from my man.

they have not doubted whatever i told them to do so. i feel they know for some reason why i do certain things in a certain way when they're told.

coming over here, was the right decision i made back then when people wanted to keep me.

decisions i made be it on studies, or whatever i want to commit, have never been a regret i suppose?

"if you've never given time, if you have never given opportunity, a chance or a risk, you never know what more magical moments you could create. ups and down are inevitable, it should be learned to be acceptable. affection can never be kept consistent or keep developing more isn't it?"

"only when you lose, then you found (realize) what you've lost."

will time then be too late?

connect me with your heart, baby.

亲人

心里很沉重, 这样做, 是在伤害自己?

thanks, thanks for everything.

i'm glad, i'm remembered.

如今, 你爱上了她的全部.

将心比心, 不知不决的把他们都当成了亲人.

有一天, 你所想要发生的事, 变成了不可能.

心里最害怕的事, 发生了, 会又如何?

你我都很清楚, 害怕的是那永远所可能失去的.

害怕再次受到伤害.

如今这选择是爱的考验, 还是...天啊! X.x

"the affection is gone when you need it the most. by the time you found it back, will it be too late?"

what have you thought about?

or are we running faster and away more than before?

但是在休息后, 我们还不知道继续走的理由.

心里沉重, 有点灰, 害怕.

但是只限在今天.

爬起来, 再走, 一定行.

much feelings, many thoughts.

看了每一集, 都很有感觉.
是因为伤口还没复原, 还是因为这部戏感人肺腑?

已经第十七站, 陪着.. 让眼泪再次的从心里的最深处发泄而出..

Anyway, this is one of the OST:



Still, the 2 x 10 Minutes of the episodes which was posted earlier, definitely brought out the feelings.

Feeling of love?

Today, have I forgotten or no longer how to? I've communicated less with my family, many thoughts are probably shared with different friends. And everyone has different parts of my story, my feelings, my thoughts.

Hah, probably only this blog of mine, gives everything, or perhaps not. Because I don't blog every minute. I remember how I use to just.. SMS someone, the moment I felt any emotions in my daily life.

The feeling of sharing with someone who knows you clearly?

There's no longer just someone, who knows every part of you.

否说爱情不再是热情时, 诚实, 是最后一道防线.

今天有个诚实的心在守护着这份爱

难道选择对你不曾有任何隐瞒的我

是大家所认定的不值得吗？

不值得, 不是任何人所可说的

因为他们连这份感情, 所经历过的所有都不知道.

那何有资格去评论呢?

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翻了翻旧物

在第二年的冬天, 也是庆祝我们的日子

你写了, "一起走到最后".

曾有过的真心与甜蜜, 仿佛像是昨天.

回忆乃然清晰可见.

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Love is never perfect; it's all cracked up that makes it perfect.

It just means never fail to try, never stop trying.

True love needs to go through storms. Only then, this love is unique with it's very own characteristics filled with cracks.

Just like watch, the scratches you created gave an unique character of the wearer. Being perfect, would lose it's uniqueness no matter how expensive it can be.

Someone told me that as friends, we'll always have reserves. Others will never truly grasp what you are. True, I see it for myself.

Everyone lives on superficiality.

When you have nothing, will there be someone who still walk with you no matter how long the road may be?

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有人说爱是互相依赖..

而我说是..

互相填满在现实生活上所缺乏的真实感..

第十八站: "如果你愿意, 我希望我们能找回六年前的我们, 全心全意, 只为了对方而存在".

small small world.

so yesterday, lying on the resuscitation bed was my old friend's BF. seen him probably months back in this unit, but i couldn't be bothered to say hi. i mean, people probably doesn't know me.

and probably this was my first time being a medic, seeing a man screaming in pain, tears in his eyes. these are a special breed of people, i do not know for some reasons, they decided to join, and undergo the selection.

whatever selection it is, it's highly confidential.

so i'm saving my butt.

panting half naked after a basketball match, i went in like "oh!" it's him in my mind.

doc wasn't around.

my man were all panicking from his screams. =.=

& so i've got to be in total control of situation.

and i kept telling myself that in my mind.

in my mind i was snapping fingers and asking myself what's next to instruct them each split secs.

today, i'm confident again just like what i use to be, to be calm and cool with situation & perform under stress.

i was even standing half naked out there, explaining the various rational calmly to 2 crabs with just 3 strips.

maybe it's a blessing in disguise or it's fated that god wants me to learn these characteristics through this vocation.

because in the past, i get "gan chiong" easily, and more often than not, my brains get stuck and i probably screw up exam papers/pissed people off.

i'm able to give clear and precise instructions to my man, telling each individual what to do and get things done ASAP in a chaotic situation where everyone crowd around doing probably 1-2 things, trying to help one another.

so in such a situation, i introduced myself: eh, you're XXX's BF, ok, chill & relax, i'm her ex school mate. (while putting on BP cuff on his hands).

saved his life? nope. WE have stabilized him then.

people here are asking me to join them and as the special breed, and not just the normal breed in this unit. =.=

sadly, i'm color blind. =D

if it was the younger him, he probably would. Because he's was harsher and will do for the sake of adventures.

Now, i'm more rational with reality in place.

Seems like SIM-biz is the next IN thing.

Singapore is so gonna be filled with SIM-biz students, like a next Diploma equivalent cert.

Pay is not gonna raise very much nor high, because it has became a norm.

Applications are gonna be open for the various Uni.

Time to get busy and update my dusty resume.

And I'm so gonna ask those Doctors I know to write me GOOD testimonials.

NUS - B.Tech (Part-Time)
NUS - Biz
NTU - Biz
SMU - Biz? AGAIN?
PSB - Chem?!
UQ - Chem Eng
Melbourne - Biz???

This cage is so gonna open after 6 months.

A BIG leap then.

Biz is too norm.

And I guess I would leave here.

To forget?

Or will you come with me then?

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I knew it will come.

I predicted it.

I told you.

Yet, I couldn't stop time.

After a hard time in my TENTATIVE career the past months,

I love my job now.

I save, I plan, I lead.

Ensure success for everything I fight for.

I'm not normal and doesn't belong to norm stream.

I don't listen to what others says.

I don't follow what they told me.

I've my thinking, I follow my heart & brain.

I know what's worth and what's not, and not determined by what they say.

An all rounder is a Special Breed in his ways.

我以为



当初你哭红了眼眶
还记得你的寂寞..
还记得你的害怕..

还记得当你病时
照顾了你整晚
半夜喂你吃药
帮你换上你头上的补
看着你睡着..

如果他们说不值得
是因为他们都没经历过我们的故事

笑我傻, 但至少我知道一切都值得

我们对彼此的付出
是与其他人都不同

感觉



眼泪带表着心里存在的爱

回忆在脑海里不断的倒带

10 minutes

简单的一句

生日快乐.


Last.

cloudy moody moldy cold. (try rhyming it!)

this post is meant before the clock strikes 12, because i didn't have the time to blog about what happen today. and i wish to keep it only on this day. =)

today, after so many long years, i verbally, finally fucked my very own man/colleague/friend, in front of all my other man.

and i recommended/made him sign 4x extras, which probably my other officers/sergeants friends have yet to do such a thing.

i guess my tolerance level over the years has really indeed increased a lot. good i would say, i mean, i've learned to deal with things professionally, properly, rather than using anger/authority.

i'm forced to do so. to maintain a certain image as a leader, in order for my people to work better with me.

people have been telling me, i'm so angelic, my tummy has been big enough eating bullets.

burst it baby. i burst, to maintain image as a leader before people think that i'm really a fucked up one/not worth to be a specialist of the organization.

i probably had converted the anger which i had on my other work, at the moment on him.

for once, after so long, i got back to years ago where i fucked cadets right on the face.

good job.

thinking back, it was thrilling.

actually, i don't or never get stress with work. if i am, it's only a moment of time where i'm pressed. otherwise i'm cool, unless i'm mugging for a paper tomorrow.

over the years, i've learned the different form of leadership styles. personally, prefer the softer approach, because i know these would actually would make a deep impact in other's life.

yet, my man reminded me, sometimes when you're too nice, people take you for granted.

they forgot the many things which you did for them. they forgot the word "appreciate". contented? satisfied?

actually, i would rather make more friends than i fucked someone and ended up losing contact after my work/ end up being not being very close friend.

sad, but yet i gained this sense of satisfaction from my work finally.

so, ended up i feel quite mixed up again.

nevertheless, it was a good experience, it probably got back that some part of me.

gotta strike a balance.

and thank you my friend for being there for me whenever i needed someone to listen to me.

i appreciate it. being a listener ain't easy eh.

thank you for your encouragements, your advises, and your visual ears.

谢了朋友!

让我们大家都一起加油!

想起过去种种的波则
原来大家都有对人与事
不同的对待与面对

不是逃避
而是在于各人的本性

但大家都没错
只是不懂得包容彼此的不同

还是不懂为什么
"不作朋友" 的 "作" 为什么不是 "做"!

time to think about it.

interesting.

当我们同在一起

会不会有人抱着你对你说
你一定行, 你一定做的到

她不知道
未来和你的路
会有多远
当她对你说
她的眼神
只带着爱

有人说爱是冒险
我们都不知道
未来会带给我们什么
但一路上有你
路不管有多远
都不程觉的寂寞

对未来的展望也更有信心

如果爱一个人就别想太多

只有珍惜现在才能够展望未来

they say life's an irony

when we're in our comfort zone

we wanna risk ourselves to see what change would bring us

we often say we want to look for what we want in life

yet what we're looking for, may not even exist

yet, sometimes we want to feel comfortable.

somewhere where you can snuggle in.

LIFE.

busy morning.

busy morning planning forecast
shooting emails
receving shots
handled SOB (shortness of breath) case
handled exhuastion (chao keng) case

today i learned to be the a.k.a cool, calm and steady.

supposedly i thought physical exhaustion should be a serious case

so i'm surprise that my reaction was super calm.

i do not know why, but probably i just had my annual medic proficiency test?

or i didn't miss the intravenous yesterday when 2 of my man missed and didn't manage to topo the veins despite the no. of tries? which in turn built up the confidence in me?

when everyone gets panicky,

"take details"
"take parameters"
"doctor standby"
"register"
"standby ambulance"


rubbish. ended up the vitals were quite norm. suspected chao keng. sorry, i feed you biggest needle then.

"fuck, fuck you all"

wow. physical exhausted patient can shout; level of consciousness is high. my man was topo-ing, and i just told them to continue. he might have felt disgusted by the needle under his skin, my man might have feared his shouts and disrupted their focus in looking out for his veins, i maybe a saddist looking. so?

"SGT, cannot. must take out needle."
"nope, try."

actually not very saddist, i just didn't want to poke another big needle into him.

so end up, i've to do it.

"done, please dislodge."

yet, dislodging failed and my vein was missed.

so they poke another.

today, i felt i'm immune.

immune to feelings of others.

and i don't feel as panicky as others, much less a planning of forecast.

if shooting emails and receiving shots seems to be a norm.

fighting politcal wars seems to be a norm as well.

somehow, i'm getting the hang of it, and handling it well.

i feel i've gained respect from my colleagues over time.

perhaps i know what i'm doing and where i'm moving.

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sometimes i feel being an all rounder ain't easy.

sometimes i feel average, sometimes i feel i'm only better in some areas. sometimes i feel i know more in many areas compared to others.

yet, somehow there's nothing i seem to be excellent in.

not just better.

so am i consider average as a average joe?

i play sports, i do shopping & appreciates fashion, i love all sorts of food, i know how to enjoy life yet not forgetting to work hard, i love watching and appreciating dramas/arts/movie/shows/exhibits, i've interest in medical knowledge/health sciences ever since i became a medic specialist, i learn how to train my body despite not being a PTI, i sing kara, i've interest in finance & investments, business, i love to observe and study relationships/characters and behaviors of others, and think alot, i play games but not a good gamer, i love sciences and researching work as it makes me feel more as a rational being, it makes me analytical, i can cook, i know how to go marketing for groceries, i know how to do all sorts of housework.

as a guy, i probably don't play soccer and don't watch soccer, unless world cup.

and of course 1 more which i'm learning.

i've probably covered most aspect.

i've yet to know of any guy friend who do whatever i probably do.

otherwise he would have been my best best buddy then.

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不明了, 不了解

不知为什么突然很有感觉
不了解这是否是欺骗还是逃避

时间过了太久
你都选择了遗忘

别告诉我你曾经所拥有的
我和你之间是我们的故事

难道一份过了真实风雨的感情
就能够让时间带走一切

想了想走过的路
真的很多

今天我的心
灰了
你不明了

选择了遗忘
过去对你的好
让我觉的不如一切

回忆不时浮现在我眼前
你对我的好
我都记得

有人说没做完的梦最痛

你呢？

对不起

但是我不会就这样被他打倒

my sense of direction is always clearer.

i may detour, but i'll never miss my destination.

i always know my path, my roads.

i know my directions, my principles.

my values, my faith, my beliefs.

mixed.

i don't know how i should express myself in this post.

surprise? disappointed?

i stand clear on my ground firmly.

"eh, you look good"

"what kinda dressing you have?"

"wtf"

"and you're here?"

"shouldn't you be at orchard or sth"

"come, i pay for you"

wtf. it doesn't matter my dressing, it doesn't matter if i'm good looking, it doesn't matter if i'm attached or not!

so while waiting, i chatted with this random guy who brought me a drink.

and i guess he's probably some big shot, which he doesn't want to tell me.

today, i see my friend, who once used to believe in everything, fall.

he's capable. but he loose faith. and so values, principles and beliefs fall.

i shan't say much, but different individual deals with things differently.

just like when in a r/s, i know subconsciously how the world is but somehow i didn't felt very close to what it is.

perhaps like what people say, when you're in love, no matter how ugly/down life is, it doesn't feel as bad? you know there's someone who's there for you, being your support, seeing what you see as one.

man are bastards. and don't judge the looks by its cover.

please test and test man over a period of 5-10 years at different phases of life. man has different faces when it comes to different environment, situations, and different phases of life.

so when women fall in love with bastards, we call these women naive. they love like they never do, and they'll never see/know what their man do behind their back. yet, they call this love? or is it just a cover for reality status? other man then laughed behind the back of these naive women.

sometimes i wonder if people consciously could feel guilt. or has hurt/pain overwhelm the power of even feeling it.

today i stick to my principles, values, beliefs and faith.

sadly, in Singapore's population, the ratio of woman to man is like 6:1. minus bastards, minus those you can't clique even if they're not bastards, minus those probably you can be in a r/s with, but unsuccessful. i guess woman nowadays can't really chose? =X

everyone has flaws, overtime it may magnified. overtime you forgot how to appreciate those points which you may initially appreciate. but how about when we chose to remember and continue to appreciate? only then, r/s can continue to flourish?

if a r/s has gone for a long time w/o you even realizing it, there is a reason which you need to find. and also understanding the fact that for a long term r/s, there's always ups & downs.

as i understood, attraction may be an initial phase of a r/s. and usually they are the honeymoon period. thereafter, it's always the bond of friendship and the many moments which 2 person can create in each other's life.

contentment changes overtime when what you initially wanted is satisfied. man, always failed to learn to be contented.

i'm not contented with my life. but i know when i'll be when i reached my dreams. because, sometimes, it's never ending going after and after many years. does it make your life fulfilling? perhaps everyone has different definition for fulfillment.

don't stop believing, and risk everything.

because you know how true you have felt before.

The Reason.

I found this article as I was browsing through the net.

Society is confusing us.

It is pretending that attraction is true love.

In addition to this nonsensical myth, we are being taught the lie that marriage should always be filled with the excitement, energy, and elation of the first stage of attraction.

Again, this is a lie. It is not only not true it is a damaging hurtful lie.

Lets look at the truth for a minute.

Attraction is the first stage of a romantic relationship evolution invented to bring people together to reproduce. This stage is quite amazing as we all know. People in this stage are nothing less than obsessed with the object of their desire. There are so many chemicals swirling around in our brains and bodies that it is no wonder many feel like they are on a high. They have more energy, more passion, more creativity. They can think of nothing more than their heart throb.

Yes, most people like this attraction phase. However it was never meant to last more than a year or two. Why? Because it is not in the best interest of individuals or life in general.

What does happen however is something even more amazing. If a relationship is strong enough, couples may move from that initial attraction into bonding and true love.

While not as intense as the attraction phase it is filled with new emotions. More subtle but also more powerful.

This phase is filled with contentment, peace, and joy. It is deeply satisfying and pleasurable, not in quite such an intense and thrilling way but certainly in a powerful and beautiful way.

Now, let us go back to the initial confusing lie we are told... that attraction is love.

Attraction is what brings people together but it really has nothing to do with love. Of course we are often deeply attracted to those we love but it is not the attraction that is love.

Love is the deep care, concern, joy, investment, commitment, appreciation,and sharing of one's life. As we share ourselves with our beloved, as we open our hearts and souls to a receptive holder of dreams, we grow in love.

As a couple unites their desires, combines their efforts, dedicates their lives to each other and their families or common goals, love grows.

Many couples who have been married for most of their lives will tell us that the love has continually deepened as they have matured. They will tell us that the love and attraction they feel in their sixties and seventies is more than anything they dreamed possible in their twenties and thirties.

In other words, love is not that feeling of just wanting to be with someone, love is the strength, union, and emotion that results from uniting, sharing, communing, and embracing our partner.

It is something that grows, develops, and deepens given the investment and care.

Think of it this way, the attraction phase is like planting a seed, and love is that which grows from the seed.

When I hear men and women say that they love their partner but are no longer attracted to them, I often hear, "I don't feel that initial attraction I once felt for my partner, and I want to."

What may be happening is that as the attraction phase ended the relationship did not deepen and grow as it could have. It stopped developing, blossoming, and evolving and therefore is no longer providing the contentment, joy, pleasure that can be profound as a relationship continues.

The answer is not to end the relationship and find another partner who will provide us with that attraction high, because as we all know, that will end as it always does.

The answer is, to invest in the relationship, nurture the friendship, commit to one's life partner, and do everything one can to bring forth the beauty and joy that is only found in truly intimate relationship.

As we release that need for the initial attraction phase and realize that we can have a profoundly deep, meaningful, and loving relationship as we share our lives with our partner perhaps we can embrace the goodness in our spouse, focus on the sharing of lives, and become attracted to the one we love.

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sometimes in reality, i wonder how many of us understand this.

maybe that is a reason why people chose not to hold on, and move on.

at the end of the day, many people around us found themselves getting nowhere.

perhaps this was a reason i found for myself, to hold on, to risk everything.

i chose to remember how true it was since the start.

at least, i know i don't wish to go through other rounds of lies and hidden truth about a partner which i know, i'll definitely have reserve zone no matter how long time may get.

nothing is perfect, so does a r/s. there'll always be ups and downs.

if i clearly recall, the past 6 years wasn't an easy route of brushing differences, and the many magical moments.

and so they say,

Hold On.

These most difficult of life's challenges are the times when we just hold on. It is not easy, it may hurt more than you can imagine, still, you hold on. You will get through it.

Trust & have faith that it'll be stronger.

human chemistry is define as when somehow, it occurs naturally.

from, http://www.relationship-love.com/advice/body-language/male-and-female-body-language.html

the above sites would provide images on the following sleep patterns.

1.THE LEG LOOP
You're both on your stomachs, sides, or backs and one of you has a leg draped over the other's leg. True, you're touching in only one spot, “but this is one of the healthiest positions, because it shows a couple with a comfortable connection,” says Hargrave. “Not too little, not too much.” The loose leg drape suggests a real friendship. Couples that bond below the hip are also likely to have a practical streak. “You're maintaining contact in the most comfortable way,” explains Pease. “Your legs can touch all night without cramping other parts of your body.” What if your legs are just barely grazing each other rather than looped, in a pretzel-like manner? You're both feeling equally confident about your relationship, Pease says. Just as a couple that really clicks can communiate with one gesture or word, the two of you can say “I love you” with just a brush of your skin.

2.THE OLD-FASHIONED SPOON
You're both on your sides, touching and facing the same direction. This is the most popular position for couples. Some of it has to do with comfort, since most of us sleep better when not face-to-face, breathing on each other, says Hargrave. But this classic pose satisfies more than just a need for a good rest. With its hand-in-glove fit, spooning rates high on the intimacy scale. When you nestle in matching fetal positions, it shows you're being vulnerable with each other and in sync. What's key is who is spooning whom. Though this position is influenced by men usually being larger than women, “whoever is behind protects the other in the relationship,” says Hargrave. “The partner in front may be less secure.” There is an exception: Whoever's holding on tighter is less confident. So if he's behind but clutching you all night, you're his mast in a storm.

3.THE ROAM ZONE
You fall asleep on opposite sides of the bed. Is a crisis brewing? Nah, you're only normal. Most couples say goodnight with a smile, then settle into a more comfy position. (Adults generally move 40 to 70 times per night, as a reflex from their dreams and to avoid cramping.) But if you head straight to your seperate sides without even a passing embrace night after night, you could be having intimacy issues, says Suzanne Lopez, a psychotherapist and author of Get Smart With Your Heart. (Having a big bed is no excuse, say the experts. Connected couples will find a sliver of space to share on a king-size bed, while fighting couples will defy physics by avoiding contact on a single one.) That said, a physical condition – from a slipped disk to an advanced pregnancy – can force madly-in-love twosomes to slumber this way for comfort. Careful, though, or a temp arrangement can become a hard to shake habit.

4.THE BOOTY BOND
You're on your sides, facing away from each other but touching butt-to-butt. What's up with that? Independence alert! Despite the linked derrieres, you're no joined-at-the-hip pair. “You probably have seperate bank accounts,” explains Hargrave. “And you don't need to consult the other before purchasing a big-ticket item like a car or a computer.” Not that there's anything wrong with that. In fact, this snoozing style illustrates a definite bond, but it's looser, since you both like it that way. “Even if you are just touching bums, you've still got that intimate body contact that we see in married couples that get along really well,” adds Pease.

5.THE REGAL POSE
He sprawls kinglike while you cosy up to him. Or you're the duvet diva, facing the ceiling while he sidles up. “Stretching out on your back, especially with one or both hands behind your head, is a typically dominant position,” says Pease. That doesn't mean your man is lording it over you. He may just be feeling cocky about how he's doing in his fantasy-football league. If you're the nuzzling spouse, you're after attention – and may not be getting it outside the bedroom, so plan a date night. One caveat: If this is only an occasional pose, you two could be role-playing, a sign you're a flirty pair. Sometimes a dominant woman will curl up, while her spouse is on his back, to help him feel more macho.

6.THE CUTIE HUG
You fall asleep in a frontal embrace. That could mean only one thing: You're reading this on your honeymoon, you lucky girl! “We call this the newlywed hug, because it's common early in a relationship, when you're desperate for each other,” says Hargrave. Yet this night-time position isn't common in couples after nine months of sleeping together, because facing and hugging restricts blood flow to your arms, says Pease. He adds with a laugh, “It usually stops around the time you show your true selves when he clips his toenails in bed.” If you have been together for years and stay asleep in a bear hug, you're among the most romantic couples. Who are we to rouse you from that happy place?

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so a little research was done after after watching "lovers for 6 years" over youtube.

total of 12 parts.

human chemistry is interesting, isn't it?

it even brings about while you're asleep unknowingly.

because i love you.

In “Lovers of Six Years,” Da-jin Lee (Ha-Neul Kim) and Jae-yeong Kim (Gye-sang Yun) find themselves in the too comfortable position of being lovers for six years. Although Da-jin and Jae-yeong live in separate apartments, their apartments sit by side by side. They spend their nights together, while only their work lives provides any degree of separation.

Da-jin works as an editor at publishing company and her boyfriend Jae-yeong works as a producer for a home shopping channel. Da-jin must recruit talented illustrator Jin-seong (Seong-rok Shin) for her next book project and in the process arouses his interest in her as a woman. Meanwhile, Jae-yeong meets a spunky part timer in the elevator at his work place. She already knows his name and seems intent on knowing even more about him. Can their relationship survive these tempting outside forces?

What “Lovers of Six Years” does well is to depict problems that occur in personal relationships involving co-habitation without the commitment of marriage. Primarily, the positives of each other’s character becomes taken for granted, while the flaws of each other’s character becomes magnified.

The film also features two engaging performers able to bring their characters to life. Ha-neul Kim seems to be a natural in the film’s more comedic moments and able to bring a sense of dignity during the film’s more dramatic moments. Co-star Gye-sang Yun (former member of K-pop group G.O.D.), had the more flawed character of the two (e.g. troublemaker), but he was able to make the audience remember the character’s stronger points more so.

The following are the trailer and the soundtrack.

新的一年, 新的力量, 同样的目标与希望

Finished and cleared up pretty much of the paper work and replying of email on the 1st day of new year. Anyway it's a lazy day for everyone after countdown. Lazing in medical centre in an empty camp is pretty much the same.

Planned forecast for January 2010 didn't have much changes to my surprise, or rather I do not see any major movement. Good job done before I left for my leave back then.

Let's probably anticipate some upcoming events in my life for 2010:

- Overseas attachment/posting?
- Possibility of promotion to 2nd SGT due to the appointment I'm holding?
- Back to some tuitioning for some molding of the future of our nation and fulfillment?
- ORD Offs
- ORD
- Investment turn over?
- Overseas backpacking?
- Business running?
- University admission (local/overseas)?

So as I was on the i-net, I saw my man loading 周杰倫 - 簡單愛



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我们都曾经寂寞而给对方承诺
我们都因为折磨而厌倦了生活

我把自己带回从前
从朋友到情人也有7年
我因该很相信在这7年所与你共处的一切
那些所建立在一起的共同嗜好与信任

已经过了第一个100 天
心里还是很有感觉
但怎么好像当初那样
连话都说不出口

有人说从小相爱的感觉是最真实
也是最单纯

也许就这样有人还是
白头到老

否能够再爱一次
我会爱的自由

不管这条路多漫长
有多远
我都会在路口等
陪你走, 不让你寂寞

时间过了这么久
我才学会

或许安静是
我给你最好的温柔

不是我不能没有你
而是我真的爱你

我只想要好好的爱一个人

爱一个能与我走过岁月的人

现在的你呢？

真的快乐吗？

笑我傻
但我相信一份真正的爱情就够了

祝大家新年快了
在新的一年里能够找回在2009年所失去的
有一个完美人生！

加油！