meeting agenda.

after much meeting with dad, the path which i wanna take is more or less settled.

after much discussion and analysis of financial issues, overseas to UQ is out.

estimated of 100k for 2 years could probably buy me a car then.

hence, i guess taking a part time degree/degree in nus would be the choice.

in 3.5 years of studies, if i manage to clinch a good paying job, and taking a part time degree in my field of specialization, then i guess working at the same time, & gaining of work experience would be beneficial.

as i look over job opening recently, a dip. holder working as a sales engineer would get probably abt 2.7K? i guess in my industry, at least i could get about 2K since i've finished my NS? shipping companies are paying pretty much as well, and there are various openings for that.

afterall my experience at HR, it's work experience that counts. a degree is basic, and it shouldn't be a lousy degree.

by the end of 3.5 years, my pay would estimated to be the same or even more than the starting pay of a full time grad who just started working?

if tuition is squeezable into my daily schedule, i guess it shouldn't be much of a problem.

then travelling schedules would be pretty hectic then. and dad has agreed to support me a car to reduce time for travelling then. hence, squeezing tuition in would pretty much cover up my monthly expenses like petrol, parking and etc which i've got to pay for myself. and that's provided if my perm job pay is lousy.

and the cost of my degree inclusive of car, would definitely cost less than 100k? very soon, i guess mum would be working full-time, bro will be going army.

and let's hope my sis would be going to JC, and expenses would be even much lesser in the coming 3 years, at least till i finish my degree. her grades has been like 5-6As out of 8 subjects.

edu funds are also up next year, and can be withdrawn very soon. financially studying in singapore would be less stressful for my family as well.

students whom i use to teach 2 years back before i enlist, are now secondary 3/4. some NA are gonna be sec 5, and recently i'm in contact with them again. hopefully, they would need some guidiance for their BIG exams in the next 2 years and will look for me.

tuition for me will limit to sec 3 to sec 5. and i guess i should start trying to teach pure physics and chem, since i'm already a chem eng poly grad. these levels are much easier to teach, and i'm able to communicate and touch their hearts better.

and if i'm still jobless after ORD, i should tentatively go back to secondary school to teach and know more students while looking for a job. of course, as of now, it's time to be busy with updating of resume, sending resume for potential job openings, getting of testimonials from my doctors, and sending of university application in the coming 2 months.

i guess part time in b.tech NUS (chem eng) shouldn't be a problem? most of my course mates manage to get it. and thank god that i chose a versatile course to further in various industry, be it sciences, engineering or business.

this course in nus is pretty good, which i consider it a stepping stone to get my masters. meanwhile, freelance/short/mid/long term investment will always be on a lookout for.

after my degree, i would bang around in the industry for some years before i probably (get married or not), get my masters (before or after marriage), and bang around again to see if i'm able to climb the cooperate ladder and make it BIG then.

by 30s, if nothing seems to get any better/stress level is too BIG or when i no longer wish to take on high stress level, then.. i'll go to some polytechnic and be lecturer. hence, a masters is a need for teaching in tertiary level... (and it doesn't matter if i get it before or after i got married).

teaching has been my passion anyway.

so what risk am i taking in my life? a route which probably i may not waste too much time, and not be fully into investments as well. because i'll always bare in mind the level of risk on a full time scale basis. as long as earnings are sufficient, some investments are made, then, financial worries shouldn't exist.

and hopefully when i'm in my late 30s, i'll be then able to share some business with a friend which i can call it my own.

a nice condo, a car or 2 should be achieveable.

life seems to be getting shorter.

soon, we'll be hitting our 30s.

so i guess the path is set.

what a long break i had theese almost 1 year 10 months.

since 17, i hadn't had a break eh?

6 more months to get everything started, to get life as busy as what i use to have before i was enlist. still remember i had school/work in the day, afternoon tuition/night tuition, sending french toast during/meet lunch, picking up later after work.

sweet? lovely? busy?

i say, blissful.

humans are not built to sustain in long term relationship due to our hormones. starting a new r/s may be fresh and hormones enhancing, but how long does it last?

some people could give up their 4-5 years r/s and regret later, yet probably trying to find someone who's replaceable after sometime. they lose faith, so they begin having one short r/s one after another.

worthiness can only determined by both of us.

to me, i know this story is worth continuing because..

if it's determined as unworthy, not worth holding onto, then i guess many do not understand that a r/s is about trying non stop, giving chances and opportunities. a cracked up r/s which has been through storms over time should be something we're proud of.

i probably could find a thousand reason why i hate you, but i couldn't find any reason why i still love you, despite the number of years and i guess i've never failed to do the sweet little things i could/should? and i've never treat it as i could or i should, it's always out of my heart.

have i truly failed?

but if we're able to go through so much in life, be it the good and bad, be it the happiness and sorrows, it means something isn't it?

recently as i watched ren ci's charity, i see old couples taking care of one another, despite illness or wealth.

爱是那份包容,
爱是那份坚持...

当你认定了她是你最后的目标的时候, 想陪着她一起努力, 她却选择了离开...

想陪着你, 一起努力的你, 又去了那里?

时间过了那么久,

你给了机会吗?