Fish's cookies was great today, but I didn't had much due to bacteria playing in my troat. Got up in the morning and had a swollen left eye, mum said it was due to insufficient rest and heatiness in my body (as usual.. -.-"). Early in the morning went to 7-eleven and bought Eye Mo. Didn't know a small little Eye Mo cost so much. Morning reading period was fun I guess? Again, I feel like crying when I listen to the songs. It just reminds me of Sunday's Parade. Over there, they played "Stand Up for Singapore". Anyway, some stupids stand up for Singapore during the singing session. It was really stupid of them to be called to stand up due to - I don't want to sing.
 
Not a great day for me today. Swollen eyes and a Sore troat was enough. E Maths test wasn't a great one. I'm so careless again. I thought I'll be able to score better. My results for previous test was sucky as expected. JS is improving lately and of course I've never underestimated her. She has the capabilities to do well. She's just lazy that's all. DC did well for the test and won me by 2 marks. Love has turned into a competition for me and maybe her.
 
Frankly speaking, I'm a egoistic person. Very few men out there will want a women who is better than him. Some love unconditionally but what is the world today? I'm disgusted. If bad results are to continue, I may give up Love and it'll be talk again later. Sometimes, I'm suffocating. I hope she wouldn't feel sad because there's not a need to. There're many things which we've to prioritize in life. I'm truly glad for DC, she's no longer as weak as before in her Maths. Her tuitioning has finally helped her.
 
I do not have a very good English. Therefore, I would like to quote from E.T:
(hope you do not mind but if you do, please let me know)
 
"How do we measure "sufficiency" in a relationship? Does it mean that when one gives, the other does not? What is the bottomline sacrifice/contribution to keep the relationship meaningful?"
 
"Emptiness is not an option. It is compulsory. People can be together physically but still feel emptiness. No guesses for the growing emptiness when people are apart. Hate is an emotion strong enough to use on emptiness, especially when the emptiness is forced upon you through another's lack of consideration." 
 
"Timing is a very important thing in life. Everything talks about timing. And bad timing due to thoughtlessness is absolutely unforgivable. It just shows that the basic skill of being human is lacking."
 
Sometimes we feel like failures, sometimes we don't. It's setbacks that we've to cross over.
 
What is Love? I no longer understands and I'm persuing an enlightenment in my life. Life is still a long way to go and there're many things which I have yet to see and feel.
 
Right now, everything has become numbed. I do not wish to care and I hope people around me can take care of themselves.
 
"Bu Bi Zhi Zhuo Dan Yao Dong De Kan Kai"