Sigh, tired. I guess today's parade was quite well done by me and my subordinates? Things did run well quite smoothly, but there were some friction between the secondary 4s. I guess many of them couldn't take the pressure.

I was quite pissed when Razak had came down after meeting and told me that I've been harsh with the parade as complained by some teachers. I guess I hadn't been. I was not shouting a lot and they thought that it was harsh was perhaps  they didn't hear what I've shouted. I was really demoralised and disappointed.

It's a parade and everyone do have pressure. Being the RSMs of this parade, holding on to responsibility and task, JT and I do have pressure. If we weren't serious. do our schoolmates treat us seriously? And what would Razak say if everyone is just playing? Who would want to be shouted at by someone your age and moreover just your schoolmates?

We took our task seriously and wasn't harsh. Many cryings were coming from the GG and I guess because they're girls and that's why. I guess being in uniform groups, one should understand what you'll be expected.

I almost wanted to shout at the GG's RSM, I was indeed furious. I tolerated and kept quiet. They were complained by my NCC girls that they gave "pandan kekanan" on the wrong leg, so I went forward and asked them.

Alex: Pandan Kekanan which leg? Did you gave wrongly just now?

GG: Left lar.. what the hell I gave the right leg ok! (Expressed anger and gave a LL face)
 
I wanted to say, "Hey! What the hell? I'm the RSM here and I'm asking you a question nicely! Is this the way you talked to me?!" Once again, I didn't and said, "Relax k.. Relax..".

The PC (Parade Commander) SM cried and I understand her situation. Being a PC isn't easy at all. You've got to have the courage and confidence. If you don't and you say something wrongly, it'll be obvious. SM is a good commander and I've got confidence that she'll make it. She just have to relax and be on alert. Moverover, she's just a very feminine lady. Asking her to shout is already a torture and fear.

My own unit's marching was totally sucks. I demoralised them in front of other uniform groups. Gold unit and that's the standard of marching? What have the Secondary 3 leaders been doing? After some scolding and explaination of my demoralisation, they finally understood and they performed well at last.

I do not know what was wrong with JM today. She was quite flare up. Maybe she was too pressurized. I mean, if you know your contingent is not marching well, you've got to admit and don't blame others and etc. Once again, you've got to take yourself out from the picture and really be fair to me. Again, they understood and performed well in the last round. Sigh.

Sometimes, I just hope people would understand and put themselves in and out of people's shoe and look into matters. Enough said. ByeZ.